Aligning The Stars Gxg
AstreaHanggang ngayon ay pilit kong pinoproseso ang mga nangyayari. It feels like I'm stuck. As if my feet was glued on the ground, and my body does not know what to do."Aster.." Ms. Elise asks, her eyes looking confused, "D-do you have something going on with my sister?"That's what snapped me back into reality. Of what's going on. "No.." I trailed off, shaking my head; not knowing what to say anymore. She just stood there, confused and not an inch of relief was plastered on her face. I skimmed through my pocket to reach my car keys, finally having the initiative to go after Vida. "I have to go, susundan ko lang si Vida, Ms. Elise." She left while she's intoxicated, with unsteady steps and slurred movements. And that's when worry gnawed at me, she shouldn't be left alone in that state."I-I'll come with you.""I'm sorry," I exhaled softly, "But Vida isn't in the right state of mind.. and seeing you now might not help her. But I'll update you once I'm there, Ms. Elise."Alam ko na nasaktan siya sa sinabi ko, the thought that her sister might be in trouble but she can't do anything dahil ayaw naman siyang makita ni Vida and seeing her might make it even worse. "O-okay.." She said softly, trying to hide the hurt in her voice. "P-please.. sabihan mo ako kaagad kapag nakita mo na siya." I nodded, " I'll make sure that she's safe and sound."Matapos ng pag-uusap namin ay dali-dali akong tumakbo papunta sa parking lot para sumakay sa sasakyan ko. Where the hell is Vida going?Ang bilis kasi ng pangyayari. Everything was unexpected tonight, from confronting Khione– to her knowing my feelings for Ms. Elise, to overstepping again, to seeing Vida drunk and tried to kiss me and Ms. Elise seeing the two of us.It's just too much.But what's more important at this moment is making sure that Vida is safe. I care for her.. but just as a friend. Nothing more than that.Pilit ko siyang tinatawagan pero lagi din niya itong binababa.And then I remembered that I can still try to track her location. She made me download this life 360 app, nung pinuntahan ko siya sa bar. I can still track her. Thank God.I plugged my phone to the stereo, as I figured out where she is— nakasakay siya ng taxi.. and it's not going to the route where her condo is. Mas binilisan ko ang pagmamaneho, trying to catch up on the taxi, hanggang sa nakita ko na ito. My heart was already pounding when I saw that the taxi was also speeding up. And suddenly.. the memories of the accident flooded back, my hands trembling on the steering wheel. The sound of screeching tires, the smell of burning rubber, and the sight of twisted metal haunted me. I could almost hear my parents' last words.But I couldn't let that paralyze me now.Vida needs me, I reminded myself, gripping the wheel tighter. I forced myself to focus on the road, on the taxi ahead.Her safety might be at stake here. I took a deep breath, pushing the fear aside, and accelerated even more. The city lights blurred past as I closed the distance between us.My heart raced as I caught up to the taxi. I swerved in front of it, blocking its path before it could veer onto another route. The tires screeched to a halt, and I jumped out of my car, running to the taxi's back door.The sight of Vida lying unconscious in the back seat sent a jolt of terror through me. Her phone was clutched in the driver's hand. Rage and fear surged through me as I confronted him. "Saan mo siya dadalhin? Ano'ng balak mo sa kanya?"The driver raised his hands defensively, his eyes wide with alarm. "Ma'am, w-wala po akong gagawin. Hindi ko rin alam sa kanya. Ang sinabi lang po niya ay ilayo siya sa lugar na 'yon at kung may nakasunod sa amin ay iwasan ko. N-nawalan na lang po siya ng malay."I stared at him, "I don't believe you," I said through gritted teeth, but there was a hint of doubt creeping into my mind."T-totoo po, ma'am. Sumusunod lang po ako sa utos niya." the driver insisted, his voice trembling. Frustration boiled within me, but I forced myself to focus on Vida. Her breathing was shallow, and her skin looked pale under the dim streetlights. "Fine," I snapped at the driver. "But if I find out you're lying..."Leaving the threat hanging, I turned my attention back to Vida. Carefully, I lifted her out of the taxi, her body limp and unresponsive. I gently placed her in the back seat of my car, making sure she was comfortable.Next, I gathered her belongings from the taxi. Her bag was tossed carelessly on the floor, and her phone, still in the driver's hand, was nearly out of battery. I snatched it from him, feeling a pang of guilt at my roughness, and then I paid for the fare.As I closed the door, I glanced back at the driver, who still looked bewildered. "If you're telling the truth, then thank you," I said, my voice softening slightly. "But if not.."He nodded vigorously, his face pale. "N-naiintindihan ko po, ma'am. P-pasenya na po."I climbed back into my car, hands trembling as I gripped the steering wheel. The memories of my parents' accident were still fresh in my mind, but I couldn't afford to let them distract me now. Vida needed me.As I pulled away, I kept checking the rearview mirror, half expecting to see the taxi following us. But the driver stayed put, watching us disappear into the night.I focused on the road ahead, driving as carefully as I could while keeping an eye on her. "What happened, Vida?" Tahimik ang pagmamaneho ko patungo sa condo niya, kumalma na rin ako at hinayaan ang hangin na pumasok sa sasakyan dahil binuksan ko ang mga bintana.The moment we arrived at her condo, tumigil muna ako ng ilang saglit. Trying to process what just happened.Suddenly, my phone rang and that's when I realized that Ms. Elise had been calling me a lot of times already. Agad ko itong kinuha at lumabas muna ng kotse para sagutin ito. "A-aster, hello? Were you able to catch up with Vida? K-kamusta siya? May nangyari bang masama? Should I contact the police?"Concern was evident in her voice, halatang nataranta talaga siya. And I can't blame her— it's her sister we're talking about."She's fine now, Ms. Elise." I exhaled deeply, "Thankfully.. I was able to track her down. She was intoxicated, she passed out when I stopped the car. Pero kasama ko na siya ngayon, nasa condo niya na ako." "..Thank God.. Oh thank goodness." Halata sa boses niya na naginhawaan siya, but there was an awkward silence that followed. Neither of us knew what to say next. I could hear her take a deep breath on the other end of the line. "A-aster.. about earlier..""I'll explain it to you, Ms. Elise." I replied."..I know you will." There was a pause on the line, filled with the faint sounds of her anxious breathing. I could sense the hesitation in her voice. "I just don't want there to be any misunderstandings or.. awkwardness between us because of tonight. The rift between me and Vida has come too far.. and you shouldn't be involved in this, I'm sorry." "I just want to make sure that Vida is okay," Dagdag niya pa.I remained silent, tila pina pakiramdaman kung ano din ang dapat na sabihin sa kanya. "Naiintindihan ko po," I reassured her. "I'll make sure to explain everything. I just want to focus on getting Vida settled and making sure she's alright.""Thank you, Aster," Ms. Elise said quietly. "I appreciate it. I'll give you some space for now. Please take care of her. And if there's anything that I can do from my end, don't hesitate to ask me.""I will. I'll keep you updated," I assured her before ending the call.With the conversation concluded, I slipped my phone back into my pocket and took a deep breath. The night air felt even colder now, adding to the weight of tonight's events.Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit nandoon siya kanina, it was pretty unexpected. Neither I was expecting to see Ms. Elise, and I know she probably has a lot of questions too. Pero paano ko ba sasabihin sa kanya.. that Vida likes me. What would she feel about it?Kapatid niya pa rin si Vida, what if.. she thinks that I've been taking advantage of the latter? Would she think that I have been with Vida that much for her sister to take a liking on me?There are a lot of things going through my head. I know she's not yet okay because of what happened yesterday, and now she has to deal with this. Hindi pa nga sila okay ni Vida, and it got worsen because of what happened earlier. I turned back to the car and saw Vida stirring in the back seat. She was already awake, sitting up and looking around, her eyes slightly dazed but more alert than before. She seemed to have sobered up a bit."Vida?" I called softly, stepping closer. I called softly, stepping closer. She looked at me, confusion and something else flickering in her eyes. I couldn't fathom what she was feeling—relief, embarrassment, fear—it was all mixed up in her expression."W-what happened?" She asked, her voice shaky.I crouched down beside her, trying to offer some comfort despite feeling awkward myself. "You were in a taxi, after you stormed off earlier. You passed out, so I brought you back to your condo. You're safe now."She took a deep breath, her shoulders slumping. "Thanks," She whispered, her voice barely audible."Let's just get you inside and settled," I said, "Are you okay now? Kaya mo bang tumayo?""Yeah." Matipid niyang sagot sa'kin at sinubukang lumabas ng kotse ko, I helped her out, hoping that she wouldn't stumble down. Walking slowly, we made our way to the entrance of her building. The night air was cool, and the city was quiet, a stark contrast to the chaos of earlier. I could feel the tension radiating off her, and it was clear that the events of the night had taken a toll.We reached her unit, and I opened the door, guiding her inside. Vida's movements were stiff, her jaw clenched. She seemed to be holding back, not just from me, but from herself as well."Do you need anything?" I asked gently, trying to break the silence that had settled between us.She shook her head, sitting down on the couch with a heavy sigh. "No, I'm fine," She muttered, but her tone betrayed her words.I noticed the way her gaze hardened, her eyes narrowing slightly. She seemed upset, but it wasn't just the situation that had unfolded earlier. It was more than that—there was a storm of emotions brewing beneath the surface.I sat down across from her, unsure of what to say. "Vida, kung may gusto kang pag-usapan.."She cut me off, her voice sharp. "No, Astrea. I don't want to talk about it." I nodded softly, ayoko rin naman na pilitin siya. Though I want to make things clear, it's much better to talk about it when she's okay."Gusto mo ba ng maiinom? I'll get you some water." I stood up, akmang pupunta na ako ng kusina when I heard her spoke."..Stop doing that." She breathes, "..You shouldn't be taking care of me like this when you don't even like me, Astrea."Her words hit me like a cold slap to the face, stopping me in my tracks. I turned back to her, the hurt and frustration in her voice cutting through the air like a knife. For a moment, I just stood there, not knowing how to respond. The guilt of what she said weighed heavy on my chest. "Vida.." I began, trying to find the right words, but she shook her head, cutting me off before I could say more."No, Astrea," she continued, her voice cracking. "You don't get to do this. You don't get to act like you care so much when deep down, you know you don't feel the same way. It's not fair to me."I felt a lump forming in my throat. "I do care about you, Vida. I—""But not the way I want you to," She cuts me off again. "You care about me like a friend, and that's it. And maybe that's all I should want, but I can't help feeling this way about you. I can't just turn it off.""I'm sorry," I whispered, feeling completely helpless. "Hindi kita gustong masaktan at magsinungaling sa'yo. It wouldn't be right."She laughed bitterly, wiping at the tears that had started to fall. "Right. Because you're such a good person, aren't you, Astrea? Always doing the right thing, always so careful not to step on anyone's toes. But you know what? Sometimes doing the right thing still ends up hurting people."I flinched at her words, feeling the sting of truth in them. "I never said I was perfect, Vida. I'm just trying to be honest with you. I don't want to lead you on or make you think there's something between us that isn't there.""But you did lead me on," She shot back, her voice trembling with emotion. "Whether you meant to or not, you made me believe that maybe, just maybe, there was a chance. That I wasn't just some consolation prize. But now, I see it. I see it so clearly. You were just being kind because you felt sorry for me.""No.. hindi sa ganun." I said, feeling desperation creep into my voice. "I care about you because you're important to me, not out of pity. Kaibigan din kita, Vida.""Friends?" she scoffed, shaking her head. "How am I supposed to be just friends with you when I feel like this? Do you have any idea how much it hurts to be around you, but it's my fault isn't it? Dahil ako naman ang nagpumilit sa sarili ko, ako naman ang laging pumupunta at lumalapit sa'yo. And yet.. I still thought that I'll be able to sway you.. that maybe this time, ako naman ang piliin.. I'm too dumb to notice that I'll never be enough as long as everyone sees that my sister is better than me.""Vida, please don't say that. You just deserve someone who can love you the way you deserve to be loved."She looked away, her shoulders slumping in defeat. "And that someone isn't you," She said softly, more to herself than to me. "It's always going to be her, isn't it? Si Vivien naman talaga lagi."Hearing Ms. Elise's name sent a jolt of guilt through me, knowing that the whole situation happened all because of me. I took a shaky breath, trying to explain. "I didn't know she would be there tonight. I had no idea—""But she was there," Vida interrupted, her voice trembling. "She was there, and you didn't even seem surprised to see her. It was like... like you were happy she was there. Like she was the one you wanted to be with, not even caring that I was there!""Vida, hindi 'yan totoo." I said, my voice barely above a whisper, where the hell did she get those thoughts? "I care about you, I do. It has nothing to do with her.. or my feelings for her.""It has everything to do with her, Astrea." Vida seemed to sense my hesitation, and her face twisted with pain. "You know what's the worst part?" she asked, her voice cracking. "It's that it always feels like it's Vivien. She's the one people notice, the one people admire. And no matter how hard I try, I'm always in her shadow. She's the one who's perfect. She's the one who's everything I'm not.""Vida, she's not perfect like you think she is. I know.. because I was there when she was at her worst." I took a deep breath, steadying myself. She laughed bitterly, her eyes flashing with frustration. "Of course, she does. But even with all her struggles, she's still the one everyone notices, the one everyone cares about.""Vida, it's not like that," I insisted, feeling the weight of her words. "This isn't about choosing her over you. It's not a competition—""Then why does it feel like it?" Vida cut me off, her voice thick with emotion. "Every time I'm around her, I feel like I'm disappearing. No matter what I do, she's always one step ahead, always the one people prefer. And you—" Her voice broke. "You see her too. You see her more than you see me."I swallowed hard, knowing that anything I said might just make things worse. "I'm sorry, Vida. Hindi ko sinasadya lahat ng 'to. I care about you, more than you know, but—""But not like you care about her," Vida finished for me, her voice hollow. "You don't have to say it. I already know."My heart ached as I looked at her, seeing the pain she was trying so hard to mask. Hindi ko rin siya masisisi kung bakit siya naging ganito, I know what it's like. "Hindi ko alam na nandoon siya kanina." I said softly. "If I had known, I would've done something.. I know what you feel about her— and believe me, it wasn't my intention to hurt you.""But you did," she whispered, her voice breaking. "And seeing her tonight, seeing the way you looked at her.. It made everything so much worse. It made me realize that no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, I'll never be anyone's choice."There was a long, painful silence between us, the kind that made you feel every second stretching out like an eternity. Finally, Vida broke it, her voice quiet and resigned. "I think you should go."She's right. Staying would only make things worse. "If that's what you want," I replied, trying to keep my voice steady.She nodded, her expression unreadable. "Yeah. It's what I want."I stood there for a moment, wanting to say something that would make this all better, but knowing there was nothing that could. Kaya sa halip, tumalikod na lang ako at naglakad patungo sa pinto. My footsteps felt heavy, like each step was a struggle. "Astrea," Vida's voice stopped me just as I reached for the door. I turned back to her, my heart pounding in my chest. "I need time. I don't know how long, but I need to figure things out on my own."I nodded slowly, understanding the gravity of what she was asking. "Take all the time you need, Vida."She didn't respond, just looked away, and I knew it was my cue to leave. I quietly opened the door and stepped out into the hallway, the door clicking shut behind me.This night is such a turn of events.
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A few days later.
"Para nang sasabog ang utak ko." I heard Tatum beside me, nakahiga kami sa damuhan, sa may ilalim ng puno na lagi naming tinatambayan sa Bloom Garden. "I have a lot of books to read. God, who knew this course will be the end of me? I already received my marks from my exams and my grades are in danger.""Kung hindi naman kasi puro Noah yung inaatupag mo..""Hey!" She sat up, frowning at me. "Noah and I are not even seeing each other lately. He has nothing to do with this.""Oh, edi si Professor Alarc–" I wasn't able to finish what I was saying dahil hinagis niya sa'kin ang panyong hawak niya."Certainly not her!" Depensa niya at napaupo pa nga."— I was about to say na magpatulong ka sa kanya." Dagdag ko and I can see how her cheeks flushed, a mix of embarrassment and frustration. She crossed her arms, clearly flustered."You could've started with that instead of accusing me of something ridiculous," she muttered, avoiding my gaze.I shrugged, a small grin playing on my lips. "Bakit ba ang defensive mo? Hindi pa nga ako tapos sa sasabihin ko."She huffed, leaning back into the tree. "Well, maybe it's because people keep assuming things about me that aren't true.""Okay, okay," I raised my hands in mock surrender. "But seriously, baka makatulong si Professor Alarcon. Everyone knows that she's pretty sharp and is also considered as one of the best in your department.. plus, she's an attorney." She glanced at me, her expression softening a bit. "Yeah, maybe.. I'll think about it."We both savored the silence between us. There are times na ganito lang kaming dalawa ni Tatum, it was a comfortable silence. And I guess she's really thinking hard about it.While my mind is also flying through the roof because even if days passed, I haven't talked to Ms. Elise after that night. It's not like we're avoiding each other on purpose, the timing isn't just that great. She got busy, and I also got occupied with my tasks dahil nagsisimula na rin kami sa research namin.Vida on the other hand, hindi ko na muna siya ginugulo. She needed time and space to sort things out for herself, I trust her to reach out once things will be okay. Madami lang din ang gumugulo sa isipan no'n, her relationship with her sister and with her parents. I'm sure that she's figuring out her life at the moment. I actually understand where she's coming from, I can't judge Vida for reacting that way. She needed to process everything on her own terms. Everyone has their own way of dealing with pain, and I know Vida well enough to give her the space she needs.But that doesn't mean I'm not worried. Madalas kong iniisip kung paano siya, kung okay lang ba talaga siya. I want to be there for her, pero alam kong hindi ako ang kailangan niya ngayon. She needs to find her own way through this, to confront her feelings without anyone else trying to guide her.She was hurting, and I knew I played a part in that pain. But it wasn't just about me or my feelings for Ms. Elise. Vida had been carrying the weight of so many things for so long—her complicated relationship with her sister, the constant comparison, the pressure from her parents. It was like she'd been living in someone else's shadow her whole life, and I was just another part of that shadow.In the meantime, I found myself thinking about the situation more than I wanted to. My feelings for Ms. Elise were complicated too, and seeing how they had affected Vida only made things more difficult. I didn't want to come between them, nor didn't want to be the reason their relationship became even more strained.I found myself replaying that night over and over in my mind, wondering if I could have handled things differently. "What are you guys doing?" My thoughts were cut off when I heard Zarela's voice. She was standing in front of us, looking at us like we're some type of weirdos. "Ang tahimik niyong dalawa, looking at some far distance."Napatingin naman ako kay Tatum who also looked at me, "We were just thinking." She says, "Bawal ba 'yon? And why are you late anyway? Kanina pa tapos ang class mo ah." Zarela sat on the other side, "I just got a phone call from my manager." "Oh ano sabi?""..Someone requested me to be a part of a series." Tugon niya, "Crazy right? No one wants to take me but all of a sudden, I was requested to be a part of it." "Hmm, what type of series is it?"She gulped, "..It's GL." "GL?" Both Tatum and I asked."Girl's Love." Zarela answered quickly. I understood what she meant by that, while Tatum was a little confused with what she just heard. "Kindly repeat that?""Girl's Love, two girls in a romantic relationship, you idiot." Agad akong napatingin kay Zarela dahil sa sagot niya, did she just call Tatum an idiot? I couldn't help but to let out a snicker as I saw how Tatum's expression changed. I didn't know Zarela could even talk like that, I find it amusing. She's always quiet and aloof but seems like she's warming up to us now. "Idiot?" Tatum glared at her, "Take that back, stupid!" "It's simple kasi, why didn't you understood it the first time?" She tried to hide the blush on her face— at mas naiintindihan ko ngayon ang inaakto niya.Nahihiya siya."Psh, so what's with the GL thing? Why don't you look excited then?" Tatum asks once more, "You got cold feet or something—""It's not that." She says, "..I-I've never been into one. I had been paired with just boys before. And doing it with a girl.. I don't know if I want to accept it." That's when I stepped up, "Why not? It's like the same thing.. the only difference is, you're doing it with a girl, a woman. Isa pa, hindi ka naman nila kukunin kung hindi ka nila pinagkakatiwalaan sa role na 'yan. Besides, acting lang naman.. it's not like, it's going to be real or something."She sighed, "Hindi lang din naman tungkol sa acting eh. It's more than that. I've been through a lot lately, with all the backlash and controversies. People are already watching my every move, waiting for me to slip up. Taking on this role.. it feels like I'm setting myself up for more criticism."Nakita ko ang pangamba at takot sa mga mata niya, I've never really grew up watching TV or being a fan of celebrities but seeing how Zarela has been affected badly because of her situation— I can see how cruel the showbiz industry can be.Tatum, who had been quietly observing, finally spoke up, "You're worried that this role will just add fuel to the fire, right? That people will use it as another reason to attack you?"Zarela nodded, her hands fidgeting with the edge of her jacket. "Exactly. And what if I don't do the role justice? What if people think I'm just doing it for attention? I don't want to be a laughing stock or ruin the series because I'm not convincing enough. Madadamay ko pa sila.""But aren't you curious?" I asked, trying to approach it from another angle. "To challenge yourself and see if you can pull it off? I mean, you've already proven yourself as a child star. This could be an opportunity to show your versatility as an actress, set aside the issues and stuff.""Sabi din 'yan ng manager ko. He thinks this could be a way for me to bounce back, to prove to everyone that I'm still serious about my career. But.. I'm scared. What if I can't handle it? What if I end up regretting it?""Everyone's scared before they take on something new," Tatum added, her voice gentler now. "But that doesn't mean you shouldn't do it. Sometimes, the things that scare us the most are the things that help us grow the most."Zarela was clearly torn, she gave us a soft nod and sighed. "Pag-iisipan ko muna.. and besides, my manager told me that he'll let me meet up with the person who requested for me to do the series later." "Update mo kami," Tatum said, "Anyway, since you're here. How about some coffee? It's on me! Come on, before you guys go to your next class." I checked the time and it's still 2:30 pm, sa isang oras pa naman bago ang susunod na klase ko. I think I need some coffee as well. The three of us then stood up and decided to go to Café Eclat just outside the school.Napag-isipan ko na rin na bilhan si Ms. Elise. I remembered what she told me a few weeks ago.. about her missing a certain someone giving her a coffee. Now that I've thought about it, ang tagal na nga talaga. After getting coffee, pinauna ko na sila Tatum na umalis, excusing that I'll stay for a while to study for our upcoming quiz kahit wala naman.I ordered her a different flavor of coffee, the one that I like. Palagi kasing inoorder ni Ms. Elise ang Cappuccino, so for a change.. I want her to have a taste of something different—something I personally enjoy. I chose Caramel Macchiato, hoping that she'd find it enjoyable too.When the barista handed me the coffee, I hesitated for a moment if lalagyan ko ba ng note or if.. I just give it to her myself. I wasn't sure if she'd appreciate the change or if she'd even notice it was from me, hopefully not. But I decided to go for it. I scribbled a quick note on the side of the cup."A little change might just be what you need today. — ⚝"I know she has a class today that's why I hurriedly went back to school and straight to her office. I was sure that she wouldn't be there.."Aster?"But I was wrong.Damn it, I should've asked for help from Aries. Pagkarating ko kasi sa opisina niya, ay nakasalubong pa kami pumunta roon. She came from the other end of the hallway, kaya laking gulat niya nang makita ako na naglalakad din patungo sa opisina niya. Her eyes went down to the coffee I was bringing, and before she could even point it out, I managed to pull the note and crumbled it into pieces."M..Ms. Elise," Bati ko sa kanya. "Coffee?" She chuckled, "That's for me?"Yes, supposedly from the anonymous student you said you missed. I thought to myself, but since nandito na rin naman ako, there's no point in denying it."I..uh.. opo." Quit stammering, Astrea. She loosened her grip on her things as she reached out to take the coffee from my hand. Her fingers brushed against mine, which made me want to retract immediately. "Thanks.." She says, "I didn't expect to see you today. It's a nice surprise."I managed a small smile, though I could feel my cheeks warming. "Bought some coffee with the girls earlier, and I figured that you might need one."She nodded, her gaze lingering on the coffee cup. "Yeah, I do. This is really thoughtful of you, Aster."I chuckled nervously, trying to hide the fact that I almost got caught red handed. There was a brief, comfortable silence between us. We stood there for a moment, the awkwardness lingering but slowly dissipating as we exchanged small smiles. The familiar tension from earlier seemed to melt away, replaced by a more relaxed, friendly atmosphere."So," She began, breaking the silence, "How have you been? I haven't had much chance to catch up with you lately."I shrugged, trying to keep the mood light. "Busy with school and.. other stuff. Pero kinakaya naman po.. kayo? Kamusta po kayo? ..Have you talked with Vida yet?"Her expression shifted slightly, a shadow of concern crossing her face. "..She's been avoiding me ever since that night."I nodded."I tried to reach out but.. I don't want to push her to talk to me, baka imbes na magkaayos kami ay mas lalong lumayo siya sa'kin." She tried to force a smile, "But I'll talk to her once she's all settled and calm."Hindi ko alam kung sasabihin ko ba sa kanya ang napag-usapan namin ni Vida nung gabing 'yon. I'm afraid of what Ms. Elise might think or do once she knows Vida's feelings towards me, knowing that it's her sister. And besides.. I haven't really explained to her what happened when she walked in on us.Kahit naman hindi siya nagtatanong, alam ko na hinihintay niya lang na ako mismo ang magsabi sa kanya.I just don't have the chance to say so. "I'm sure she'll come around eventually." I tried to assure her, "Hindi rin kami masyadong nag-uusap, I'm giving her some space and time to be alone with her thoughts."She hums softly, "I hope so." It was a split second of silence as I finally decided to say goodbye. Ilang minuto na lang kasi ay klase ko na, "Ah, mauna na po ako. I still have a class, tsaka baka masyado ko nang nakukuha yung oras niyo.""Oh, alright." She smiles at me, "Thanks again for the coffee, Aster." As I was about to leave, nakatalikod na nga ako at magmamadali na sanang tumakbo when I heard her calling for my name again, I swallowed a lump in my throat as I looked back at her. "..Do you want to go with me on a quick lake trip this friday?"That was the only thing I understand, para ngang na blanko ako dahil hindi ko matandaan kung ano pa ang ibang sinabi niya, though I heard her say the word 'cabin' and 'unwind'. She just went inside her office after I answered her question.Wait..Did I say yes?"Great.." I whispered to myself, "You're going to be alone with her again."
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Friday
"Extra clothes.. brush.. ano pa ba." I rummaged through the things I'll bring for an overnight stay at Ms. Elise's cabin, yes, that's right. She owns a cabin, surrounded with a lake. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit bigla siyang nag-aya, but after knowing that she might be bothered with her situation with Khione and Vida. Mas mabuti na rin siguro na madamayan ko siya sa nararamdaman niya.And maybe this is the chance that I'll be able to explain to her what happened that night."..Camera." I frowned as I couldn't find the camera on its usual spot. "Wait, where is it?"And that's when I remembered that I left it sa office ng Constellations the other night, since Tita Sandra was the one who was the last to leave, pinadala ko na lang sa kanya at kukunin ko pala dapat 'yon kahapon.It's already 4:50 pm. Ms. Elise will fetch me at 5:00 pm. Paano ba 'to.. maybe I'll just ask Ms. Elise na daanan na lang namin ang bahay ni Tita Sandra mamaya. I quickly fixed everything and made sure that I left my unit safely. Saktong pagkababa ko naman nang tumawag si Ms. Elise and told me to wait outside, a few minutes later, I saw her pulling over her car in front of me. I gestured that I'll place my things at the back seat at hindi na siya pinababa pa. Once I entered the front seat, I was welcomed by her warm smile. "Got your things packed?" She asked."Opo.. um, except for my camera. Nandoon po sa bahay ni Tita Sandra, if it's not much of a hassle, pwede po ba nating daanan? Kunin ko po ng mabilisan."She chuckled softly, "Oo naman. We're not in a rush. It's just an hour drive to get there.""Thank you, Ms. Elise."Nagsimula na siyang mag drive while I was leading her the way to Tita Sandra's house. Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla akong kinabahan, is it because of the idea that we'll be alone together for the next 24 hours? I should be used to it— with no malice.But how can I not calm down? "Hey, tumahimik ka bigla." Napatingin naman ako kay Ms. Elise when I heard her speaking to me. "Ah, sorry. May iniisip lang po." She hums softly, "We're arriving in a few minutes, have you texted your Tita?""I'll just go inside, I have a key with me." Hindi ko rin kasi alam kung nasa loob lang ba si Tita Sandra or may ibang pinuntahan 'yon. Pagkarating namin ay pinagpark ko muna si Ms. Elise sa labas while I got out of the car. But I frowned when I saw a man coming out from the house together with Tita Sandra, and I couldn't fathom what I would feel the moment I saw her covering up her bruises— new ones. Not only that.. she has bruises on her face as well.They seemed serious with their talk, Tita Sandra's face contorted with worry. Na para bang takot na takot siya. I felt myself boiling up inside.Parang gusto ko na lang sugurin yung lalaking 'yon, but I know how Tita Sandra will react. I tried to calm myself as I watched the man leave while Tita Sandra went inside. "Aster, okay ka lang?" Napatingin ako kay Ms. Elise nang tinanong niya ako, she had opened the window seat. Probably confused as to why I'm just standing."Opo." I answered, even though I'm not. "I'll be quick."My heart is pounding as the scene earlier kept on replaying in my mind. Series of questions came through me.Sino ba ang lalake na 'yon? Why does Tita Sandra seem so scared? Is he the one who did all of those to her? I just want answers.Pagpasok ko sa bahay, napansin ko agad ang katahimikan. Parang kakaibang bigat ang bumabalot sa loob, and it only made my heart pound harder. Tita Sandra was standing near the window, her back facing me. Nakahawak siya sa braso niya, as if she was lost, not even aware that I was behind her."Ta," I started, my voice trembling despite my attempt to stay calm. Kita ko na nagulat siya at bahagyang napalingon sa akin. "A-astrea, anong ginagawa mo dito?" She asked, her voice shaking as she quickly avoided my gaze.Mas lalo ko siyang natitigan, and her bruises.. tangina, they're all new."..Who did that to you?" Mabigat ang pakiramdam ko habang tinatanong sa kanya 'yon, "Yung lalaki ba na 'yon? Was he the monster who did that to you?!""Y-you saw us?" She was shocked, her head shaking. "L-let's not talk about it.""Not talk about it?" I asked, trying to make sense of her reaction. "Ta, kitang-kita ko na oh. I saw how scared you were when you talked to that man earlier, and you're still going to disregard it?"She shook her head, clearly distressed. "Wala 'yon. You shouldn't have seen that. It's not something you need to worry about.""No need to worry about?" Hindi ko makapaniwalang saad. "Tita, may mga pasa ka na naman. Pati sa mukha mo. Just answer me, sino ba talaga ang may gawa nito sa'yo? Siya ba?"She froze at my words, her body visibly tensing. "Astrea, please," She pleaded, her voice barely a whisper. "Huwag mo na itong pakialaman. It's too dangerous.""Kung delikado pala, edi mas lalong hindi kita pwedeng pabayaan. I can't just stand by and watch you get hurt," I insisted, my voice rising with frustration. "Sino ba talaga siya? Ta naman–" I tried to calm myself, dahil ayokong kainin ng galit ko ngayon. "..Just please tell me the truth."She hesitated, clearly torn between telling me the truth and keeping me safe. Her eyes filled with tears as she finally faced me. "I can't tell you. Hindi mo maiintindihan," She said, her voice breaking.I felt a wave of helplessness wash over me. "Tita, paano kita maiintindihan kung ayaw mo naman magsabi?" I asked softly, trying to reach her. "Ayokong makita kang ganito ka, lalo na't alam kong may ginagawa sa'yo 'yung lalake na 'yon."She looked at me, her expression filled with pain and fear. "Astrea, please.. I just need you to trust me on this. I know you're worried, but this is something I have to handle on my own."But I couldn't accept that. Not when I knew she was suffering. "Tita, I can't let this go. Kung hindi mo sasabihin sa'kin, hahanapin ko ang mga sagot na 'yan mag-isa," I could feel my tears starting to come out, "K-kung mawawala ka pa.. I don't know what to do anymore. H-hindi ko alam kung anong magagawa ko.. I've already lost my parents.. Pati ba naman ikaw? Ta, ikaw na lang ang natitira kong pamilya.. Please don't do this to me."Napatitig siya sa akin, halatang hirap na hirap siyang makita akong ganito, at sa isang iglap, tila nawala ang mga alanganin sa mukha niya. I watched as she tried to compose herself, wiping the tears from her cheeks and straightening her posture. But I could see through it—she was trembling, and the fear in her eyes was unmistakable."Astrea," she began hesitantly, her voice barely above a whisper, "There are things you don't understand.. things that I've done." She looked away, her hands clutching the fabric of her blouse as if it could shield her from the truth she was about to reveal."Just tell me, please."She hesitated, her eyes darting around the room as if searching for an escape. "I.. I became involved with someone," She finally admitted, her voice trembling. "It was a mistake, but I didn't know how to get out."Napatigil ako, her words sinking in slowly "Involved?" I asked.She swallowed hard, her gaze dropping to the floor. "I became a mistress," She whispered, as if saying it any louder would make it worse. "I didn't mean to, Astrea. But it happened, and now I'm trapped."My heart sank, I didn't want to believe it. I know Tita's history with the men he dated— but what she despised the most was being cheated on. And yet.. she became a mistress?"Is he the one hurting you?"Her face contorted with anguish as she shook her head. "I didn't know who he really was at first. Akala ko... akala ko he would help me, that he cared about me. But then I found out things—things that made me realize he's dangerous. Astrea, I need to get away from him, but I can't. He won't let me."I clenched my fists, trying to hold back the rage bubbling up inside me. "Tita, kailangan mong sabihin sa'kin kung sino siya. You can't protect him, not after what he's done to you."But she shook her head again, more forcefully this time. "No, Astrea. You won't understand. If I tell you, it'll only make things worse. He'll come after you too, and I can't let that happen. Please, just leave it be.""Hindi ko 'to pwedeng pabayaan, Tita!" I snapped, my frustration finally boiling over. "You can't expect me to stand by and do nothing while you're being hurt. Tell me who he is! I'll figure this out and help you get away with him!" But her silence was deafening, her lips pressed into a tight line as tears continued to stream down her face. No matter how much I pleaded, she wouldn't say another word. It was as if she had resigned herself to her fate, and that realization only made my anger flare brighter."Putangina, Tita!" I cursed, pacing the floor in frustration. "How can you protect someone who's doing this to you? You deserve better than this! We can go to the police, we can—""No, Astrea," she interrupted, her voice firm despite the tears. "You don't understand what you're up against. This isn't something that can be solved easily. I'm telling you, for your own safety, stay out of it. Please."I stopped in my tracks, feeling a wave of helplessness wash over me. "Tita, I can't just let this go," I whispered, my voice cracking. "I can't lose you."She reached out and gently took my hand, squeezing it tightly. "Alam ko.. Astrea, I know how much you care. But sometimes, the best way to protect the people you love is to stay away from danger. Please, promise me you won't do anything reckless."My heart ached at her words, torn between my desire to protect her and the fear of what might happen if I didn't listen. I looked into her eyes, filled with pain and fear, and I knew that for now, I had to respect her wishes—even if it went against everything inside me."I'll stay out of it.. for now," I relented, my voice barely a whisper. "But if anything happens, Tita, you have to promise me you'll let me help you. I won't let you face this alone."She nodded, but the look in her eyes told me she wasn't convinced. "I will," she whispered, her voice breaking. "..I want to be alone for now.. I'm not pushing you away, you know that right? W-will you do that for me?"How can I say no? Kitang kita ko na pagod na siya, as if life has sucked out the energy in her. As much as I didn't want to leave.. scared that something bad might happen to her— she hugged me tightly to assure me that she will be fine.Everything has been too much lately— but this has been the heaviest I've ever felt. ..The only family I have left is suffering, and yet.. I don't even know what to do. "You're with someone," She says after looking out of the window, "Lucerias' don't make anyone wait, hindi ba? It would be rude.. and not likely for us to do that to anyone."She tried to sound cheerful but I couldn't even look at her after knowing what she's been going through."Ta..""I'll be fine," She kissed me on my forehead, "..We'll talk about it when I'm fully ready. Now go, huwag mong pag hintayin yung kasama mo." I didn't want to leave, but I know that she was right. Ms. Elise was waiting for me outside.. hindi pwedeng pabayaan ko lang din siya. "Please.." I asked, "Don't keep secrets from me anymore." She nodded, wiping her tears. "I'll message you later once I'm okay." As I walked back out to the car, I felt a mix of emotions—anger, fear, helplessness—all swirling inside me. Ms. Elise looked at me with concern as I climbed into the front seat."Everything okay?" she asked softly. "Did you get your camera?"..Nakalimutan ko pa ang rason kung bakit ako pumunta dito. I didn't want to go back there and see Tita Sandra in her state right now, baka mahihirapan pa akong iwan ulit siya. Even though I know that it's what she needed. Some time to be alone with herself. "..I guess Tita Sandra left it sa Restaurant," I lied, trying to hide my distress as I forced a smile, "It's not that important anyway. I have my phone here." I can sense the worry in Ms. Elise's eyes, ganun ba ako kahalata? Or is she really that good at reading what's going through my head?"Okay," She whispered to me, and I felt her hand on my own. Her touch was gentle, but it sent a wave of warmth through me that I didn't expect. I looked down at her hand on mine, feeling the weight of everything I was trying to hold back."You don't have to pretend with me, Aster," Ms. Elise said softly, her voice filled with genuine concern. "If something's wrong, you can tell me. I'm here for you."I swallowed hard, trying to keep my composure. The last thing I wanted was to break down in front of her. But the way she looked at me—like she truly cared—made it hard to keep everything bottled up. "Thanks, Ms. Elise," I smiled half-heartedly, "I guess I'm just lucky to have someone like you around."She chuckled softly, but there was a sincerity in her eyes that made my heart skip a beat. "I'm the lucky one," She replied. "Now, how about we get out of here and clear our heads? Maybe a change of scenery will help.""Yeah," I agreed, feeling a small sense of relief,"That sounds like a good idea."As she started the car and we pulled away from Tita Sandra's house, I couldn't help but glance back one last time. A part of me wanted to rush back inside and try again, to do something, anything, to make things better. But another part of me knew that, for now, this was the best I could do.Binalik ko na ang atensyon sa daan, trying to focus on the moment and on the comforting presence beside me. Maybe being away from the city will help me think of what I'm going to do with Tita's situation. I couldn't shake the image of Tita Sandra's bruised face or the fear in her eyes. No matter what she said, I knew I couldn't let this go. I just had to figure out how to protect her—whether she wanted me to or not.One step at a time, I told myself. One step at a time.
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A few days later.
"Para nang sasabog ang utak ko." I heard Tatum beside me, nakahiga kami sa damuhan, sa may ilalim ng puno na lagi naming tinatambayan sa Bloom Garden. "I have a lot of books to read. God, who knew this course will be the end of me? I already received my marks from my exams and my grades are in danger.""Kung hindi naman kasi puro Noah yung inaatupag mo..""Hey!" She sat up, frowning at me. "Noah and I are not even seeing each other lately. He has nothing to do with this.""Oh, edi si Professor Alarc–" I wasn't able to finish what I was saying dahil hinagis niya sa'kin ang panyong hawak niya."Certainly not her!" Depensa niya at napaupo pa nga."— I was about to say na magpatulong ka sa kanya." Dagdag ko and I can see how her cheeks flushed, a mix of embarrassment and frustration. She crossed her arms, clearly flustered."You could've started with that instead of accusing me of something ridiculous," she muttered, avoiding my gaze.I shrugged, a small grin playing on my lips. "Bakit ba ang defensive mo? Hindi pa nga ako tapos sa sasabihin ko."She huffed, leaning back into the tree. "Well, maybe it's because people keep assuming things about me that aren't true.""Okay, okay," I raised my hands in mock surrender. "But seriously, baka makatulong si Professor Alarcon. Everyone knows that she's pretty sharp and is also considered as one of the best in your department.. plus, she's an attorney." She glanced at me, her expression softening a bit. "Yeah, maybe.. I'll think about it."We both savored the silence between us. There are times na ganito lang kaming dalawa ni Tatum, it was a comfortable silence. And I guess she's really thinking hard about it.While my mind is also flying through the roof because even if days passed, I haven't talked to Ms. Elise after that night. It's not like we're avoiding each other on purpose, the timing isn't just that great. She got busy, and I also got occupied with my tasks dahil nagsisimula na rin kami sa research namin.Vida on the other hand, hindi ko na muna siya ginugulo. She needed time and space to sort things out for herself, I trust her to reach out once things will be okay. Madami lang din ang gumugulo sa isipan no'n, her relationship with her sister and with her parents. I'm sure that she's figuring out her life at the moment. I actually understand where she's coming from, I can't judge Vida for reacting that way. She needed to process everything on her own terms. Everyone has their own way of dealing with pain, and I know Vida well enough to give her the space she needs.But that doesn't mean I'm not worried. Madalas kong iniisip kung paano siya, kung okay lang ba talaga siya. I want to be there for her, pero alam kong hindi ako ang kailangan niya ngayon. She needs to find her own way through this, to confront her feelings without anyone else trying to guide her.She was hurting, and I knew I played a part in that pain. But it wasn't just about me or my feelings for Ms. Elise. Vida had been carrying the weight of so many things for so long—her complicated relationship with her sister, the constant comparison, the pressure from her parents. It was like she'd been living in someone else's shadow her whole life, and I was just another part of that shadow.In the meantime, I found myself thinking about the situation more than I wanted to. My feelings for Ms. Elise were complicated too, and seeing how they had affected Vida only made things more difficult. I didn't want to come between them, nor didn't want to be the reason their relationship became even more strained.I found myself replaying that night over and over in my mind, wondering if I could have handled things differently. "What are you guys doing?" My thoughts were cut off when I heard Zarela's voice. She was standing in front of us, looking at us like we're some type of weirdos. "Ang tahimik niyong dalawa, looking at some far distance."Napatingin naman ako kay Tatum who also looked at me, "We were just thinking." She says, "Bawal ba 'yon? And why are you late anyway? Kanina pa tapos ang class mo ah." Zarela sat on the other side, "I just got a phone call from my manager." "Oh ano sabi?""..Someone requested me to be a part of a series." Tugon niya, "Crazy right? No one wants to take me but all of a sudden, I was requested to be a part of it." "Hmm, what type of series is it?"She gulped, "..It's GL." "GL?" Both Tatum and I asked."Girl's Love." Zarela answered quickly. I understood what she meant by that, while Tatum was a little confused with what she just heard. "Kindly repeat that?""Girl's Love, two girls in a romantic relationship, you idiot." Agad akong napatingin kay Zarela dahil sa sagot niya, did she just call Tatum an idiot? I couldn't help but to let out a snicker as I saw how Tatum's expression changed. I didn't know Zarela could even talk like that, I find it amusing. She's always quiet and aloof but seems like she's warming up to us now. "Idiot?" Tatum glared at her, "Take that back, stupid!" "It's simple kasi, why didn't you understood it the first time?" She tried to hide the blush on her face— at mas naiintindihan ko ngayon ang inaakto niya.Nahihiya siya."Psh, so what's with the GL thing? Why don't you look excited then?" Tatum asks once more, "You got cold feet or something—""It's not that." She says, "..I-I've never been into one. I had been paired with just boys before. And doing it with a girl.. I don't know if I want to accept it." That's when I stepped up, "Why not? It's like the same thing.. the only difference is, you're doing it with a girl, a woman. Isa pa, hindi ka naman nila kukunin kung hindi ka nila pinagkakatiwalaan sa role na 'yan. Besides, acting lang naman.. it's not like, it's going to be real or something."She sighed, "Hindi lang din naman tungkol sa acting eh. It's more than that. I've been through a lot lately, with all the backlash and controversies. People are already watching my every move, waiting for me to slip up. Taking on this role.. it feels like I'm setting myself up for more criticism."Nakita ko ang pangamba at takot sa mga mata niya, I've never really grew up watching TV or being a fan of celebrities but seeing how Zarela has been affected badly because of her situation— I can see how cruel the showbiz industry can be.Tatum, who had been quietly observing, finally spoke up, "You're worried that this role will just add fuel to the fire, right? That people will use it as another reason to attack you?"Zarela nodded, her hands fidgeting with the edge of her jacket. "Exactly. And what if I don't do the role justice? What if people think I'm just doing it for attention? I don't want to be a laughing stock or ruin the series because I'm not convincing enough. Madadamay ko pa sila.""But aren't you curious?" I asked, trying to approach it from another angle. "To challenge yourself and see if you can pull it off? I mean, you've already proven yourself as a child star. This could be an opportunity to show your versatility as an actress, set aside the issues and stuff.""Sabi din 'yan ng manager ko. He thinks this could be a way for me to bounce back, to prove to everyone that I'm still serious about my career. But.. I'm scared. What if I can't handle it? What if I end up regretting it?""Everyone's scared before they take on something new," Tatum added, her voice gentler now. "But that doesn't mean you shouldn't do it. Sometimes, the things that scare us the most are the things that help us grow the most."Zarela was clearly torn, she gave us a soft nod and sighed. "Pag-iisipan ko muna.. and besides, my manager told me that he'll let me meet up with the person who requested for me to do the series later." "Update mo kami," Tatum said, "Anyway, since you're here. How about some coffee? It's on me! Come on, before you guys go to your next class." I checked the time and it's still 2:30 pm, sa isang oras pa naman bago ang susunod na klase ko. I think I need some coffee as well. The three of us then stood up and decided to go to Café Eclat just outside the school.Napag-isipan ko na rin na bilhan si Ms. Elise. I remembered what she told me a few weeks ago.. about her missing a certain someone giving her a coffee. Now that I've thought about it, ang tagal na nga talaga. After getting coffee, pinauna ko na sila Tatum na umalis, excusing that I'll stay for a while to study for our upcoming quiz kahit wala naman.I ordered her a different flavor of coffee, the one that I like. Palagi kasing inoorder ni Ms. Elise ang Cappuccino, so for a change.. I want her to have a taste of something different—something I personally enjoy. I chose Caramel Macchiato, hoping that she'd find it enjoyable too.When the barista handed me the coffee, I hesitated for a moment if lalagyan ko ba ng note or if.. I just give it to her myself. I wasn't sure if she'd appreciate the change or if she'd even notice it was from me, hopefully not. But I decided to go for it. I scribbled a quick note on the side of the cup."A little change might just be what you need today. — ⚝"I know she has a class today that's why I hurriedly went back to school and straight to her office. I was sure that she wouldn't be there.."Aster?"But I was wrong.Damn it, I should've asked for help from Aries. Pagkarating ko kasi sa opisina niya, ay nakasalubong pa kami pumunta roon. She came from the other end of the hallway, kaya laking gulat niya nang makita ako na naglalakad din patungo sa opisina niya. Her eyes went down to the coffee I was bringing, and before she could even point it out, I managed to pull the note and crumbled it into pieces."M..Ms. Elise," Bati ko sa kanya. "Coffee?" She chuckled, "That's for me?"Yes, supposedly from the anonymous student you said you missed. I thought to myself, but since nandito na rin naman ako, there's no point in denying it."I..uh.. opo." Quit stammering, Astrea. She loosened her grip on her things as she reached out to take the coffee from my hand. Her fingers brushed against mine, which made me want to retract immediately. "Thanks.." She says, "I didn't expect to see you today. It's a nice surprise."I managed a small smile, though I could feel my cheeks warming. "Bought some coffee with the girls earlier, and I figured that you might need one."She nodded, her gaze lingering on the coffee cup. "Yeah, I do. This is really thoughtful of you, Aster."I chuckled nervously, trying to hide the fact that I almost got caught red handed. There was a brief, comfortable silence between us. We stood there for a moment, the awkwardness lingering but slowly dissipating as we exchanged small smiles. The familiar tension from earlier seemed to melt away, replaced by a more relaxed, friendly atmosphere."So," She began, breaking the silence, "How have you been? I haven't had much chance to catch up with you lately."I shrugged, trying to keep the mood light. "Busy with school and.. other stuff. Pero kinakaya naman po.. kayo? Kamusta po kayo? ..Have you talked with Vida yet?"Her expression shifted slightly, a shadow of concern crossing her face. "..She's been avoiding me ever since that night."I nodded."I tried to reach out but.. I don't want to push her to talk to me, baka imbes na magkaayos kami ay mas lalong lumayo siya sa'kin." She tried to force a smile, "But I'll talk to her once she's all settled and calm."Hindi ko alam kung sasabihin ko ba sa kanya ang napag-usapan namin ni Vida nung gabing 'yon. I'm afraid of what Ms. Elise might think or do once she knows Vida's feelings towards me, knowing that it's her sister. And besides.. I haven't really explained to her what happened when she walked in on us.Kahit naman hindi siya nagtatanong, alam ko na hinihintay niya lang na ako mismo ang magsabi sa kanya.I just don't have the chance to say so. "I'm sure she'll come around eventually." I tried to assure her, "Hindi rin kami masyadong nag-uusap, I'm giving her some space and time to be alone with her thoughts."She hums softly, "I hope so." It was a split second of silence as I finally decided to say goodbye. Ilang minuto na lang kasi ay klase ko na, "Ah, mauna na po ako. I still have a class, tsaka baka masyado ko nang nakukuha yung oras niyo.""Oh, alright." She smiles at me, "Thanks again for the coffee, Aster." As I was about to leave, nakatalikod na nga ako at magmamadali na sanang tumakbo when I heard her calling for my name again, I swallowed a lump in my throat as I looked back at her. "..Do you want to go with me on a quick lake trip this friday?"That was the only thing I understand, para ngang na blanko ako dahil hindi ko matandaan kung ano pa ang ibang sinabi niya, though I heard her say the word 'cabin' and 'unwind'. She just went inside her office after I answered her question.Wait..Did I say yes?"Great.." I whispered to myself, "You're going to be alone with her again."
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Friday
"Extra clothes.. brush.. ano pa ba." I rummaged through the things I'll bring for an overnight stay at Ms. Elise's cabin, yes, that's right. She owns a cabin, surrounded with a lake. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit bigla siyang nag-aya, but after knowing that she might be bothered with her situation with Khione and Vida. Mas mabuti na rin siguro na madamayan ko siya sa nararamdaman niya.And maybe this is the chance that I'll be able to explain to her what happened that night."..Camera." I frowned as I couldn't find the camera on its usual spot. "Wait, where is it?"And that's when I remembered that I left it sa office ng Constellations the other night, since Tita Sandra was the one who was the last to leave, pinadala ko na lang sa kanya at kukunin ko pala dapat 'yon kahapon.It's already 4:50 pm. Ms. Elise will fetch me at 5:00 pm. Paano ba 'to.. maybe I'll just ask Ms. Elise na daanan na lang namin ang bahay ni Tita Sandra mamaya. I quickly fixed everything and made sure that I left my unit safely. Saktong pagkababa ko naman nang tumawag si Ms. Elise and told me to wait outside, a few minutes later, I saw her pulling over her car in front of me. I gestured that I'll place my things at the back seat at hindi na siya pinababa pa. Once I entered the front seat, I was welcomed by her warm smile. "Got your things packed?" She asked."Opo.. um, except for my camera. Nandoon po sa bahay ni Tita Sandra, if it's not much of a hassle, pwede po ba nating daanan? Kunin ko po ng mabilisan."She chuckled softly, "Oo naman. We're not in a rush. It's just an hour drive to get there.""Thank you, Ms. Elise."Nagsimula na siyang mag drive while I was leading her the way to Tita Sandra's house. Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla akong kinabahan, is it because of the idea that we'll be alone together for the next 24 hours? I should be used to it— with no malice.But how can I not calm down? "Hey, tumahimik ka bigla." Napatingin naman ako kay Ms. Elise when I heard her speaking to me. "Ah, sorry. May iniisip lang po." She hums softly, "We're arriving in a few minutes, have you texted your Tita?""I'll just go inside, I have a key with me." Hindi ko rin kasi alam kung nasa loob lang ba si Tita Sandra or may ibang pinuntahan 'yon. Pagkarating namin ay pinagpark ko muna si Ms. Elise sa labas while I got out of the car. But I frowned when I saw a man coming out from the house together with Tita Sandra, and I couldn't fathom what I would feel the moment I saw her covering up her bruises— new ones. Not only that.. she has bruises on her face as well.They seemed serious with their talk, Tita Sandra's face contorted with worry. Na para bang takot na takot siya. I felt myself boiling up inside.Parang gusto ko na lang sugurin yung lalaking 'yon, but I know how Tita Sandra will react. I tried to calm myself as I watched the man leave while Tita Sandra went inside. "Aster, okay ka lang?" Napatingin ako kay Ms. Elise nang tinanong niya ako, she had opened the window seat. Probably confused as to why I'm just standing."Opo." I answered, even though I'm not. "I'll be quick."My heart is pounding as the scene earlier kept on replaying in my mind. Series of questions came through me.Sino ba ang lalake na 'yon? Why does Tita Sandra seem so scared? Is he the one who did all of those to her? I just want answers.Pagpasok ko sa bahay, napansin ko agad ang katahimikan. Parang kakaibang bigat ang bumabalot sa loob, and it only made my heart pound harder. Tita Sandra was standing near the window, her back facing me. Nakahawak siya sa braso niya, as if she was lost, not even aware that I was behind her."Ta," I started, my voice trembling despite my attempt to stay calm. Kita ko na nagulat siya at bahagyang napalingon sa akin. "A-astrea, anong ginagawa mo dito?" She asked, her voice shaking as she quickly avoided my gaze.Mas lalo ko siyang natitigan, and her bruises.. tangina, they're all new."..Who did that to you?" Mabigat ang pakiramdam ko habang tinatanong sa kanya 'yon, "Yung lalaki ba na 'yon? Was he the monster who did that to you?!""Y-you saw us?" She was shocked, her head shaking. "L-let's not talk about it.""Not talk about it?" I asked, trying to make sense of her reaction. "Ta, kitang-kita ko na oh. I saw how scared you were when you talked to that man earlier, and you're still going to disregard it?"She shook her head, clearly distressed. "Wala 'yon. You shouldn't have seen that. It's not something you need to worry about.""No need to worry about?" Hindi ko makapaniwalang saad. "Tita, may mga pasa ka na naman. Pati sa mukha mo. Just answer me, sino ba talaga ang may gawa nito sa'yo? Siya ba?"She froze at my words, her body visibly tensing. "Astrea, please," She pleaded, her voice barely a whisper. "Huwag mo na itong pakialaman. It's too dangerous.""Kung delikado pala, edi mas lalong hindi kita pwedeng pabayaan. I can't just stand by and watch you get hurt," I insisted, my voice rising with frustration. "Sino ba talaga siya? Ta naman–" I tried to calm myself, dahil ayokong kainin ng galit ko ngayon. "..Just please tell me the truth."She hesitated, clearly torn between telling me the truth and keeping me safe. Her eyes filled with tears as she finally faced me. "I can't tell you. Hindi mo maiintindihan," She said, her voice breaking.I felt a wave of helplessness wash over me. "Tita, paano kita maiintindihan kung ayaw mo naman magsabi?" I asked softly, trying to reach her. "Ayokong makita kang ganito ka, lalo na't alam kong may ginagawa sa'yo 'yung lalake na 'yon."She looked at me, her expression filled with pain and fear. "Astrea, please.. I just need you to trust me on this. I know you're worried, but this is something I have to handle on my own."But I couldn't accept that. Not when I knew she was suffering. "Tita, I can't let this go. Kung hindi mo sasabihin sa'kin, hahanapin ko ang mga sagot na 'yan mag-isa," I could feel my tears starting to come out, "K-kung mawawala ka pa.. I don't know what to do anymore. H-hindi ko alam kung anong magagawa ko.. I've already lost my parents.. Pati ba naman ikaw? Ta, ikaw na lang ang natitira kong pamilya.. Please don't do this to me."Napatitig siya sa akin, halatang hirap na hirap siyang makita akong ganito, at sa isang iglap, tila nawala ang mga alanganin sa mukha niya. I watched as she tried to compose herself, wiping the tears from her cheeks and straightening her posture. But I could see through it—she was trembling, and the fear in her eyes was unmistakable."Astrea," she began hesitantly, her voice barely above a whisper, "There are things you don't understand.. things that I've done." She looked away, her hands clutching the fabric of her blouse as if it could shield her from the truth she was about to reveal."Just tell me, please."She hesitated, her eyes darting around the room as if searching for an escape. "I.. I became involved with someone," She finally admitted, her voice trembling. "It was a mistake, but I didn't know how to get out."Napatigil ako, her words sinking in slowly "Involved?" I asked.She swallowed hard, her gaze dropping to the floor. "I became a mistress," She whispered, as if saying it any louder would make it worse. "I didn't mean to, Astrea. But it happened, and now I'm trapped."My heart sank, I didn't want to believe it. I know Tita's history with the men he dated— but what she despised the most was being cheated on. And yet.. she became a mistress?"Is he the one hurting you?"Her face contorted with anguish as she shook her head. "I didn't know who he really was at first. Akala ko... akala ko he would help me, that he cared about me. But then I found out things—things that made me realize he's dangerous. Astrea, I need to get away from him, but I can't. He won't let me."I clenched my fists, trying to hold back the rage bubbling up inside me. "Tita, kailangan mong sabihin sa'kin kung sino siya. You can't protect him, not after what he's done to you."But she shook her head again, more forcefully this time. "No, Astrea. You won't understand. If I tell you, it'll only make things worse. He'll come after you too, and I can't let that happen. Please, just leave it be.""Hindi ko 'to pwedeng pabayaan, Tita!" I snapped, my frustration finally boiling over. "You can't expect me to stand by and do nothing while you're being hurt. Tell me who he is! I'll figure this out and help you get away with him!" But her silence was deafening, her lips pressed into a tight line as tears continued to stream down her face. No matter how much I pleaded, she wouldn't say another word. It was as if she had resigned herself to her fate, and that realization only made my anger flare brighter."Putangina, Tita!" I cursed, pacing the floor in frustration. "How can you protect someone who's doing this to you? You deserve better than this! We can go to the police, we can—""No, Astrea," she interrupted, her voice firm despite the tears. "You don't understand what you're up against. This isn't something that can be solved easily. I'm telling you, for your own safety, stay out of it. Please."I stopped in my tracks, feeling a wave of helplessness wash over me. "Tita, I can't just let this go," I whispered, my voice cracking. "I can't lose you."She reached out and gently took my hand, squeezing it tightly. "Alam ko.. Astrea, I know how much you care. But sometimes, the best way to protect the people you love is to stay away from danger. Please, promise me you won't do anything reckless."My heart ached at her words, torn between my desire to protect her and the fear of what might happen if I didn't listen. I looked into her eyes, filled with pain and fear, and I knew that for now, I had to respect her wishes—even if it went against everything inside me."I'll stay out of it.. for now," I relented, my voice barely a whisper. "But if anything happens, Tita, you have to promise me you'll let me help you. I won't let you face this alone."She nodded, but the look in her eyes told me she wasn't convinced. "I will," she whispered, her voice breaking. "..I want to be alone for now.. I'm not pushing you away, you know that right? W-will you do that for me?"How can I say no? Kitang kita ko na pagod na siya, as if life has sucked out the energy in her. As much as I didn't want to leave.. scared that something bad might happen to her— she hugged me tightly to assure me that she will be fine.Everything has been too much lately— but this has been the heaviest I've ever felt. ..The only family I have left is suffering, and yet.. I don't even know what to do. "You're with someone," She says after looking out of the window, "Lucerias' don't make anyone wait, hindi ba? It would be rude.. and not likely for us to do that to anyone."She tried to sound cheerful but I couldn't even look at her after knowing what she's been going through."Ta..""I'll be fine," She kissed me on my forehead, "..We'll talk about it when I'm fully ready. Now go, huwag mong pag hintayin yung kasama mo." I didn't want to leave, but I know that she was right. Ms. Elise was waiting for me outside.. hindi pwedeng pabayaan ko lang din siya. "Please.." I asked, "Don't keep secrets from me anymore." She nodded, wiping her tears. "I'll message you later once I'm okay." As I walked back out to the car, I felt a mix of emotions—anger, fear, helplessness—all swirling inside me. Ms. Elise looked at me with concern as I climbed into the front seat."Everything okay?" she asked softly. "Did you get your camera?"..Nakalimutan ko pa ang rason kung bakit ako pumunta dito. I didn't want to go back there and see Tita Sandra in her state right now, baka mahihirapan pa akong iwan ulit siya. Even though I know that it's what she needed. Some time to be alone with herself. "..I guess Tita Sandra left it sa Restaurant," I lied, trying to hide my distress as I forced a smile, "It's not that important anyway. I have my phone here." I can sense the worry in Ms. Elise's eyes, ganun ba ako kahalata? Or is she really that good at reading what's going through my head?"Okay," She whispered to me, and I felt her hand on my own. Her touch was gentle, but it sent a wave of warmth through me that I didn't expect. I looked down at her hand on mine, feeling the weight of everything I was trying to hold back."You don't have to pretend with me, Aster," Ms. Elise said softly, her voice filled with genuine concern. "If something's wrong, you can tell me. I'm here for you."I swallowed hard, trying to keep my composure. The last thing I wanted was to break down in front of her. But the way she looked at me—like she truly cared—made it hard to keep everything bottled up. "Thanks, Ms. Elise," I smiled half-heartedly, "I guess I'm just lucky to have someone like you around."She chuckled softly, but there was a sincerity in her eyes that made my heart skip a beat. "I'm the lucky one," She replied. "Now, how about we get out of here and clear our heads? Maybe a change of scenery will help.""Yeah," I agreed, feeling a small sense of relief,"That sounds like a good idea."As she started the car and we pulled away from Tita Sandra's house, I couldn't help but glance back one last time. A part of me wanted to rush back inside and try again, to do something, anything, to make things better. But another part of me knew that, for now, this was the best I could do.Binalik ko na ang atensyon sa daan, trying to focus on the moment and on the comforting presence beside me. Maybe being away from the city will help me think of what I'm going to do with Tita's situation. I couldn't shake the image of Tita Sandra's bruised face or the fear in her eyes. No matter what she said, I knew I couldn't let this go. I just had to figure out how to protect her—whether she wanted me to or not.One step at a time, I told myself. One step at a time.
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