♡Another Chance ♡ #Wattys 2019 [ Completed]
Chapter 39 : In My Heart
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Chapter 39 : In My Heart
"Heavy Hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water.." ~ Christopher Morley...
SundayAfternoon...Around 5 p.m.Khushi's new apartment
Khushi stretched her hands and thought to take a quick nap but when her wished had fulfilled at first place..Never...So, the doorbell rang making Khushi groan in annoyance.. stretching her lethargic body, Khushi went to the main door and open it. The moment her eyes catches the unexpected visitor her sleepy, tired eyes flew open..." You... What are you doing here Arnav?" Khushi asked looking at Arnav who was standing at her doorstep." Ohh.. I... I just came..." Arnav said stammering a little." Yaa.. that I can see...I am not blind you know.. I am asking why you came here?" Khushi asked with tight lipped clearly annoyed by Arnav's unannounced appearance.But instead of answering, Arnav just pushed Khushi sideway gently and entered into the apartment saying, " You should let me in first... It's rude to make your guest stand in front of your house.. It's bad manner, you know."Khushi's jaw drop and her mouth framed a perfect 'o'.. The guts of the boy.. How dare he.. Before Khushi forms a fitted reply she saw that Arnav had royally sitted in the small sofa and looking at the apartment intently as if he owns it.That arrogant jerk... Khushi murmured mentally but to her bad luck, Arnav listened it clearly and replied with a grin, "Thank you for the compliment.""Did you hit your head somewhere? Why are you talking like this? Please, I am very tired... just leave.." Khushi said irritated. " That's why I am here. I will help you to arrange.." Arnav said calmly." I never knew that the world famous fashion designer has become a certified interior designer?" Khushi said sarcastically but it seems Arnav did not get affected.Instead Arnav came closer to Khushi with long stride and whisper in her ears, " it's a secret talent.. and I prefer this to show only to MY LADY..."Khushi starlet hearing his words.. She felt her face flushed but also anger surged into her " Arnav.. don't you dare to flirt with me.. I am not your girlfriend or wife... JUST LEAVE.."Arnav raised up his hand in surrender.., " Sorry.. sorry... my mistake.. But truly I want to know, do you need any help?"" No.. Thanks for asking." Khushi said controlling her conflicting emotions. She felt warm that Arnav came, but was also irritated at the same time that her heart is acting opposite of her strong determined mind." Actually Khushi I am here to ask you something." Arnav's next question broke Khushi's reverie." huh.. What?" " I want to know what had happened that night on your birthday, 6 years back.. You are hiding something very serious.. Please Khushi, let me know." Arnav's words make Khushi speechless for few moments.. He is still holding onto the same matter. Gathering her courage, Khushi finally spoke.. " I do not have time for this right now." Khushi said sternly." You cannot avoid these question forever." Arnav stubbornly repeated." I am not avoiding anything." Khushi's anger rose and she felt she is losing her rational mind.Arnav raised an eyebrow, demanding an answer. "Really? You are not? I surely know you are hiding something."" No!" Khushi kept staring at him. Taking a deep breath Khushi uttered those words which she knew will hurt Arnav," I just do not want to dwell on something which is pointless."" What are you even saying? You think this is pointless? You think me demanding an honest answer from you is waste of time?I am just asking about a simple question Khushi which you clearly avoiding.." Arnav too raised his voice a little being frustrated of Khushi's stubbornness.Khushi did not answer him as she turned around feeling a rushed of emotions running through her vein. She already knew this was going to turn up the minute Arnav had asked her for the first time about it. Khushi knew very well about Arnav's nature.. He is a stubborn man. This was something she was afraid to answer this.. Because Khushi knew if the truth comes out, all hell will loosen up and Arnav will totally lose it.. Specially after knowing Arnav's suicidal attempt, Khushi is really somewhere scare to reveal the fact what had happened to her.. Arnav will surely blame himself and Khushi is scared that he might take a wrong step. All honesty, she did not know how to answer his questions." Khushi...Please.." Arnav's voice again threatened Khushi's last sanity.Khushi turned around to face Arnav, " Well, if you are hell bend to listen, then yes, there is something very serious happened to me in that night and you are indirectly responsible for that. But you are not at all important to me that I would share it with you.. Remember one thing very clearly Arnav, There was no history between us. There never was nor will it ever happen. The sooner you get this through, the better. For you, for me and for both of us. We were never meant to be together and we will never be.." The moment Khushi uttered those words she regretted because Arnav's face lost all it's colour.The sudden emotion of feeling rejected filled Arnav's mind. He stood there for few moments without uttering any single words ... his intense yet painful eyes was begging Khushi to withdraw her words but Khushi was no way to bend down...Finally Arnav left Khushi's apartment before he could say something he would regret later on.That evening and rest the day, Arnav spend in his penthouse not wanting to face his family or not even wanted to show them his massive break down..He cried for almost whole the night for finally realising the fact that he had lost the right on the only girl whom he had loved with his everything...
**********Next day...AK Fashion house..Next day Arnav could not concentrate on his work. After the unexpected face off between him and Khushi, he felt they are again standing in the same position like the first day he had met with Khushi in RM, years after... No progress.. All of his efforts had gone into vein.Khushi was present in the office and her behaviour was so very normal which bothered Arnav. "Did not she felt his heartbreak? Did she really moved on?" Arnav thought bitterly and suddenly felt very tired of expecting the unexpected... "Another chance from Khushi.."Arnav did not able to approach to Khushi because of his promise to remain professional at work... So, the whole day, he irrespective of being restless, did not bother Khushi by asking the question again and again.. He felt to bang his head on the wall somewhere seeing Khushi all smiling to every employee except him.That evening, Arnav had spent his whole time at his cabin. He felt frustrated yet hurt. Had he really aimed far too ahead of him that he thought that everything would be fine? That Khushi will again accept him with open arm? Khushi was probably being civil with him, that does not mean she has forgiven him or forgotten anything...How could he feel so empty again? Just like... he did not feel like refreshing the hidden memory. Yet, Arnav could not stop remembering her hurtful words, the words which echoed in his mind over and over again."There is something very serious happened to me in that night and you are indirectly responsible for that. But you are not at all important that I would share it with you"..What did Khushi meant by that? What else he did that tormented Khushi this much?"We were never meant to be together and we will never be.."Khushi detest him this much ? Did she really hate him the way she claim? No.. This can never be true... Khushi, his Khushi can never be that bitter.. He cannot take that...Arnav turned his hands into fist by what affect she had on him. Arnav was tired of sitting by the sideline and watch, his life unfold before him. This was not what he wanted.This was not who he was. The rebel... the rule breaker... who always dictate his life but before this girl nothing seems valid anymore...He felt anger, betrayal and emptiness by her words and he was not going to leave it at that. Arnav stood up and stormed out from the office building and climbed into his car and drove toward the familiar street once again.After few moments Arnav stop his car infront of Khushi's apartment. His face was red due to the suppress anger and his jaw is tightly clenched. He knocked after taking a long breath, waiting impatiently for Khushi to open the door.
**********MondayAround 6:30 p.m.Khushi's new apartmentKhushi was tired after coming from the office. She was not exhausted due to the work but Arnav's restless yet intense gaze followed her everywhere. She felt very conscious.. She felt irritated. Khushi wanted to stop all this but she knew Arnav will not rest in peace till the matter close as per his demand. And Khushi was adamant to not tell him about the fateful night, so, she did the thing which she thought best at this time...Avoidance..Yes, Khushi avoided Arnav the whole day at office..Deliberately, when it comes to discuss anything about any design, either she had sent her junior or she has taken another person with her... Khushi literally avoided Arnav to face him alone..But irrespective of all her efforts, Khushi still felt restless watching Arnav's broken self.. The immense pain which was reflecting through his eyes, how much Khushi tried but could not forget those eyes.Khushi sigh a little, closing her eyes but flung opens hearing the doorbell. Someone has ringing it impatiently..Who might be at the door?Khushi opened the door and got surprised to see Arnav again, her heartbeat rose yet she sighed. " Arnav, what are you doing here again? I thought I made myself clear yesterday about...""What do you think of yourself? Huh? WHAT DO YOU THINK DAMMIT?" Arnav led himself inside where Khushi could not help but to take a few steps back in the living room. His eyes were burning with gut wrenching pain yet demanding for answers." What are you doing? You're not allowed in here!" Khushi said being perplexed suddenly watching this raged Arnav." The hell I am." He started to get closer to her, as he held her by the arm." Listen to me first, and listen to me very carefully Khushi Kumari Gupta. What did you think? That you could just waltz back in Delhi and in my life with the thought that nothing happened between us? That the last few years never happened? That the days and moments in Harvard never occurred in reality? Then you are mistaken" Arnav whispered yelled at Khushi making her confused yet irritated. Khushi tried to struggle from his strong grip, " Arnav stop. Leave my hand right now..." Arnav let her go that instant but Khushi finds intensive eyes staring right at her. "What? Does it hurt to talk about the old days? Does it bring back some memories?" Arnav chewed every words with such intensity that shocked Khushi.Khushi could not believe what she was hearing and could not believe the variety of emotions which were displaying on Arnav's face. "What do you think Khushi, that all of our past was a joke? Are you the only person living on this earth who has feelings? Are you the only person left who had a hurtful past? Are you the only person who struggle to survive?" Arnav said each word with such intensity that Khushi remain speechless and slowly raised his voice." Are you the only one who faced betrayal and pain? Are you the only person who was played?" Arnav said taking another step towards Khushi making her impossible to breath." Arnav, you are crossing the line." Khushi tried to control her raging anger and her raising heartbeat as well." What, crossing the line? And you did not cross the line?" Arnav reached out and held her by the arms once again." Look what you have done to me.. For the past 6 years I have lived with the thought that I would see you again, once in my life and I would do everything in my hand to ask for your forgiveness. In those years I have remembered my own spoken words which I carelessly threw towards you and remembered your face, in my open eyes as well in my dreams.. They haunt me every single moment of my life. I tried to survive just because of the wish to see you once again in my life..." The last line comes as a whisper while a tear drop roll down from Arnav's eyes.His eyes were piercing through her very soul . Khushi on the other hand could not comprehend what he was confessing to her."Damn it!"Arnav released her as nothing made sense anymore. "Damn it. What do you think of yourself? Do not I have any feelings, any emotions?" Arnav said while his eyes pricked with unshed tears." Many thing has changed Khushi, in this 6 years.. The immature, coward boy has changed to a mature man now whom the world known as a business tycoon. This business, this achievement is because of that strong will to see you again.. Every minute, every second I have tried to become a better person. And it's all because of you and For you. And you are telling me, there was nothing between us? That I am no one in your life?" Arnav chocked a little and closed his eyes to control the overwhelming emotions.Khushi was speechless for a moment.. Why she is feeling that the wall she had made around her heart is about to crumble if this man infront her shows this intense emotions longer." There was many changes in my life but one thing was constant. That is you.. You, your thought, the desire to meet you and over all Loving you was the one constant in my life, Khushi... I love you.." Arnav said while Khushi gulp the lump which was not letting her to breaths properly."Don't I have the right to show how much you mean to me? That how much I love you?" Arnav asked while his pleading eyes bore hole in Khushi's well guarded heart." I know I am not in that position so you can trust me, naturally, once I had hurt you and mistrusted you, so, you have every right to reject me now.. Every right to not trust my words or my actions.. I know I have hurt you immensely but look today, I am getting back the same hurt and feeling of the brokenness with more intensity. When I realised what you truly means to me, when I realized that how much I had hurt you, I also realised that it was late... But I waited for you Khushi... and now, when I got back you, I don't want to lose you again. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, KHUSHI..." Arnav paused a little while rubbing his eyes harshly and Khushi closes her eyes to control her tears.." I know, in a corner of your heart, a very small corner may be, there is still a place for me.. I know I am still there, may be suppressed by the intensity of hatred or mistrust but I am still there..I know you still love me, but I also know that you don't trust me.."Arnav paused a little while controlling his tears and Khushi closed her eyes... It's true, she does not trust him anymore.. It's not about love but trust.. and Arnav has lost it..."You know Khushi, in my life I never believe in God or fate.. I always used to say that Arnav Singh Raizada apna kismat khud likhta hai ,( ASR can write his own destiny)..But look today, what destiny has done to me, I am standing in that cross road where I have to leave my Love on destiny..but it's okay.. Let's see..let's see, where my destiny takes me at the end of my yearning and wait for love, since this long years...because No one can change the truth that I LOVE YOU...not even your devi maiyaa...Because now, meri hakikat bhi tum ho aur mera junoon bhi (You are my reality and you are also my passion)... It's too funny that years before you needed my trust and love which I failed to show and now I am also unable to make you believe on my Love..." Arnav chuckled while fresh round of tears roll down from his eyes one after another." You know what Khushi... Once in the path to love, You were there waiting for me but I was not there for you to hold you, but now, I am here to mend everything for us, I am here to take a leap of faith but you are not ready to take the steps with me... there is a proverb you know, 'Paar ki mukam paar, Kabhi hum na the, to kabhi tum na thi." Khushi was beyond surprised to witness such strong emotions coming from Arnav. His eyes were telling her what he was feeling. Pain, brokenness along with intense love was visible before her. "I love you Khushi... I love you... You are the one who rules my heart, soul and mind... In my heart, it was always you... always.. Please say something..." Arnav's whisper while his hold gets strong on Khushi...
To be contd...
********************Author note:Hello, lovely people over here...Hope You all are doing well.. Please take care of yourself and your family against the deadly virus...Here is the next part of this FF, Chapter 39 "In My Heart"..Share you view please.... I have started a new story named, "Distance Between Hearts", based on two childhood friends.. read it if you have time..Waiting for your review regarding this chapter.... Thank you for reading this story.. Love and Regards..Your story tellerMamree23.04.2020
Chapter 39 : In My Heart
"Heavy Hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water.." ~ Christopher Morley...
SundayAfternoon...Around 5 p.m.Khushi's new apartment
Khushi stretched her hands and thought to take a quick nap but when her wished had fulfilled at first place..Never...So, the doorbell rang making Khushi groan in annoyance.. stretching her lethargic body, Khushi went to the main door and open it. The moment her eyes catches the unexpected visitor her sleepy, tired eyes flew open..." You... What are you doing here Arnav?" Khushi asked looking at Arnav who was standing at her doorstep." Ohh.. I... I just came..." Arnav said stammering a little." Yaa.. that I can see...I am not blind you know.. I am asking why you came here?" Khushi asked with tight lipped clearly annoyed by Arnav's unannounced appearance.But instead of answering, Arnav just pushed Khushi sideway gently and entered into the apartment saying, " You should let me in first... It's rude to make your guest stand in front of your house.. It's bad manner, you know."Khushi's jaw drop and her mouth framed a perfect 'o'.. The guts of the boy.. How dare he.. Before Khushi forms a fitted reply she saw that Arnav had royally sitted in the small sofa and looking at the apartment intently as if he owns it.That arrogant jerk... Khushi murmured mentally but to her bad luck, Arnav listened it clearly and replied with a grin, "Thank you for the compliment.""Did you hit your head somewhere? Why are you talking like this? Please, I am very tired... just leave.." Khushi said irritated. " That's why I am here. I will help you to arrange.." Arnav said calmly." I never knew that the world famous fashion designer has become a certified interior designer?" Khushi said sarcastically but it seems Arnav did not get affected.Instead Arnav came closer to Khushi with long stride and whisper in her ears, " it's a secret talent.. and I prefer this to show only to MY LADY..."Khushi starlet hearing his words.. She felt her face flushed but also anger surged into her " Arnav.. don't you dare to flirt with me.. I am not your girlfriend or wife... JUST LEAVE.."Arnav raised up his hand in surrender.., " Sorry.. sorry... my mistake.. But truly I want to know, do you need any help?"" No.. Thanks for asking." Khushi said controlling her conflicting emotions. She felt warm that Arnav came, but was also irritated at the same time that her heart is acting opposite of her strong determined mind." Actually Khushi I am here to ask you something." Arnav's next question broke Khushi's reverie." huh.. What?" " I want to know what had happened that night on your birthday, 6 years back.. You are hiding something very serious.. Please Khushi, let me know." Arnav's words make Khushi speechless for few moments.. He is still holding onto the same matter. Gathering her courage, Khushi finally spoke.. " I do not have time for this right now." Khushi said sternly." You cannot avoid these question forever." Arnav stubbornly repeated." I am not avoiding anything." Khushi's anger rose and she felt she is losing her rational mind.Arnav raised an eyebrow, demanding an answer. "Really? You are not? I surely know you are hiding something."" No!" Khushi kept staring at him. Taking a deep breath Khushi uttered those words which she knew will hurt Arnav," I just do not want to dwell on something which is pointless."" What are you even saying? You think this is pointless? You think me demanding an honest answer from you is waste of time?I am just asking about a simple question Khushi which you clearly avoiding.." Arnav too raised his voice a little being frustrated of Khushi's stubbornness.Khushi did not answer him as she turned around feeling a rushed of emotions running through her vein. She already knew this was going to turn up the minute Arnav had asked her for the first time about it. Khushi knew very well about Arnav's nature.. He is a stubborn man. This was something she was afraid to answer this.. Because Khushi knew if the truth comes out, all hell will loosen up and Arnav will totally lose it.. Specially after knowing Arnav's suicidal attempt, Khushi is really somewhere scare to reveal the fact what had happened to her.. Arnav will surely blame himself and Khushi is scared that he might take a wrong step. All honesty, she did not know how to answer his questions." Khushi...Please.." Arnav's voice again threatened Khushi's last sanity.Khushi turned around to face Arnav, " Well, if you are hell bend to listen, then yes, there is something very serious happened to me in that night and you are indirectly responsible for that. But you are not at all important to me that I would share it with you.. Remember one thing very clearly Arnav, There was no history between us. There never was nor will it ever happen. The sooner you get this through, the better. For you, for me and for both of us. We were never meant to be together and we will never be.." The moment Khushi uttered those words she regretted because Arnav's face lost all it's colour.The sudden emotion of feeling rejected filled Arnav's mind. He stood there for few moments without uttering any single words ... his intense yet painful eyes was begging Khushi to withdraw her words but Khushi was no way to bend down...Finally Arnav left Khushi's apartment before he could say something he would regret later on.That evening and rest the day, Arnav spend in his penthouse not wanting to face his family or not even wanted to show them his massive break down..He cried for almost whole the night for finally realising the fact that he had lost the right on the only girl whom he had loved with his everything...
**********Next day...AK Fashion house..Next day Arnav could not concentrate on his work. After the unexpected face off between him and Khushi, he felt they are again standing in the same position like the first day he had met with Khushi in RM, years after... No progress.. All of his efforts had gone into vein.Khushi was present in the office and her behaviour was so very normal which bothered Arnav. "Did not she felt his heartbreak? Did she really moved on?" Arnav thought bitterly and suddenly felt very tired of expecting the unexpected... "Another chance from Khushi.."Arnav did not able to approach to Khushi because of his promise to remain professional at work... So, the whole day, he irrespective of being restless, did not bother Khushi by asking the question again and again.. He felt to bang his head on the wall somewhere seeing Khushi all smiling to every employee except him.That evening, Arnav had spent his whole time at his cabin. He felt frustrated yet hurt. Had he really aimed far too ahead of him that he thought that everything would be fine? That Khushi will again accept him with open arm? Khushi was probably being civil with him, that does not mean she has forgiven him or forgotten anything...How could he feel so empty again? Just like... he did not feel like refreshing the hidden memory. Yet, Arnav could not stop remembering her hurtful words, the words which echoed in his mind over and over again."There is something very serious happened to me in that night and you are indirectly responsible for that. But you are not at all important that I would share it with you"..What did Khushi meant by that? What else he did that tormented Khushi this much?"We were never meant to be together and we will never be.."Khushi detest him this much ? Did she really hate him the way she claim? No.. This can never be true... Khushi, his Khushi can never be that bitter.. He cannot take that...Arnav turned his hands into fist by what affect she had on him. Arnav was tired of sitting by the sideline and watch, his life unfold before him. This was not what he wanted.This was not who he was. The rebel... the rule breaker... who always dictate his life but before this girl nothing seems valid anymore...He felt anger, betrayal and emptiness by her words and he was not going to leave it at that. Arnav stood up and stormed out from the office building and climbed into his car and drove toward the familiar street once again.After few moments Arnav stop his car infront of Khushi's apartment. His face was red due to the suppress anger and his jaw is tightly clenched. He knocked after taking a long breath, waiting impatiently for Khushi to open the door.
**********MondayAround 6:30 p.m.Khushi's new apartmentKhushi was tired after coming from the office. She was not exhausted due to the work but Arnav's restless yet intense gaze followed her everywhere. She felt very conscious.. She felt irritated. Khushi wanted to stop all this but she knew Arnav will not rest in peace till the matter close as per his demand. And Khushi was adamant to not tell him about the fateful night, so, she did the thing which she thought best at this time...Avoidance..Yes, Khushi avoided Arnav the whole day at office..Deliberately, when it comes to discuss anything about any design, either she had sent her junior or she has taken another person with her... Khushi literally avoided Arnav to face him alone..But irrespective of all her efforts, Khushi still felt restless watching Arnav's broken self.. The immense pain which was reflecting through his eyes, how much Khushi tried but could not forget those eyes.Khushi sigh a little, closing her eyes but flung opens hearing the doorbell. Someone has ringing it impatiently..Who might be at the door?Khushi opened the door and got surprised to see Arnav again, her heartbeat rose yet she sighed. " Arnav, what are you doing here again? I thought I made myself clear yesterday about...""What do you think of yourself? Huh? WHAT DO YOU THINK DAMMIT?" Arnav led himself inside where Khushi could not help but to take a few steps back in the living room. His eyes were burning with gut wrenching pain yet demanding for answers." What are you doing? You're not allowed in here!" Khushi said being perplexed suddenly watching this raged Arnav." The hell I am." He started to get closer to her, as he held her by the arm." Listen to me first, and listen to me very carefully Khushi Kumari Gupta. What did you think? That you could just waltz back in Delhi and in my life with the thought that nothing happened between us? That the last few years never happened? That the days and moments in Harvard never occurred in reality? Then you are mistaken" Arnav whispered yelled at Khushi making her confused yet irritated. Khushi tried to struggle from his strong grip, " Arnav stop. Leave my hand right now..." Arnav let her go that instant but Khushi finds intensive eyes staring right at her. "What? Does it hurt to talk about the old days? Does it bring back some memories?" Arnav chewed every words with such intensity that shocked Khushi.Khushi could not believe what she was hearing and could not believe the variety of emotions which were displaying on Arnav's face. "What do you think Khushi, that all of our past was a joke? Are you the only person living on this earth who has feelings? Are you the only person left who had a hurtful past? Are you the only person who struggle to survive?" Arnav said each word with such intensity that Khushi remain speechless and slowly raised his voice." Are you the only one who faced betrayal and pain? Are you the only person who was played?" Arnav said taking another step towards Khushi making her impossible to breath." Arnav, you are crossing the line." Khushi tried to control her raging anger and her raising heartbeat as well." What, crossing the line? And you did not cross the line?" Arnav reached out and held her by the arms once again." Look what you have done to me.. For the past 6 years I have lived with the thought that I would see you again, once in my life and I would do everything in my hand to ask for your forgiveness. In those years I have remembered my own spoken words which I carelessly threw towards you and remembered your face, in my open eyes as well in my dreams.. They haunt me every single moment of my life. I tried to survive just because of the wish to see you once again in my life..." The last line comes as a whisper while a tear drop roll down from Arnav's eyes.His eyes were piercing through her very soul . Khushi on the other hand could not comprehend what he was confessing to her."Damn it!"Arnav released her as nothing made sense anymore. "Damn it. What do you think of yourself? Do not I have any feelings, any emotions?" Arnav said while his eyes pricked with unshed tears." Many thing has changed Khushi, in this 6 years.. The immature, coward boy has changed to a mature man now whom the world known as a business tycoon. This business, this achievement is because of that strong will to see you again.. Every minute, every second I have tried to become a better person. And it's all because of you and For you. And you are telling me, there was nothing between us? That I am no one in your life?" Arnav chocked a little and closed his eyes to control the overwhelming emotions.Khushi was speechless for a moment.. Why she is feeling that the wall she had made around her heart is about to crumble if this man infront her shows this intense emotions longer." There was many changes in my life but one thing was constant. That is you.. You, your thought, the desire to meet you and over all Loving you was the one constant in my life, Khushi... I love you.." Arnav said while Khushi gulp the lump which was not letting her to breaths properly."Don't I have the right to show how much you mean to me? That how much I love you?" Arnav asked while his pleading eyes bore hole in Khushi's well guarded heart." I know I am not in that position so you can trust me, naturally, once I had hurt you and mistrusted you, so, you have every right to reject me now.. Every right to not trust my words or my actions.. I know I have hurt you immensely but look today, I am getting back the same hurt and feeling of the brokenness with more intensity. When I realised what you truly means to me, when I realized that how much I had hurt you, I also realised that it was late... But I waited for you Khushi... and now, when I got back you, I don't want to lose you again. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, KHUSHI..." Arnav paused a little while rubbing his eyes harshly and Khushi closes her eyes to control her tears.." I know, in a corner of your heart, a very small corner may be, there is still a place for me.. I know I am still there, may be suppressed by the intensity of hatred or mistrust but I am still there..I know you still love me, but I also know that you don't trust me.."Arnav paused a little while controlling his tears and Khushi closed her eyes... It's true, she does not trust him anymore.. It's not about love but trust.. and Arnav has lost it..."You know Khushi, in my life I never believe in God or fate.. I always used to say that Arnav Singh Raizada apna kismat khud likhta hai ,( ASR can write his own destiny)..But look today, what destiny has done to me, I am standing in that cross road where I have to leave my Love on destiny..but it's okay.. Let's see..let's see, where my destiny takes me at the end of my yearning and wait for love, since this long years...because No one can change the truth that I LOVE YOU...not even your devi maiyaa...Because now, meri hakikat bhi tum ho aur mera junoon bhi (You are my reality and you are also my passion)... It's too funny that years before you needed my trust and love which I failed to show and now I am also unable to make you believe on my Love..." Arnav chuckled while fresh round of tears roll down from his eyes one after another." You know what Khushi... Once in the path to love, You were there waiting for me but I was not there for you to hold you, but now, I am here to mend everything for us, I am here to take a leap of faith but you are not ready to take the steps with me... there is a proverb you know, 'Paar ki mukam paar, Kabhi hum na the, to kabhi tum na thi." Khushi was beyond surprised to witness such strong emotions coming from Arnav. His eyes were telling her what he was feeling. Pain, brokenness along with intense love was visible before her. "I love you Khushi... I love you... You are the one who rules my heart, soul and mind... In my heart, it was always you... always.. Please say something..." Arnav's whisper while his hold gets strong on Khushi...
To be contd...
********************Author note:Hello, lovely people over here...Hope You all are doing well.. Please take care of yourself and your family against the deadly virus...Here is the next part of this FF, Chapter 39 "In My Heart"..Share you view please.... I have started a new story named, "Distance Between Hearts", based on two childhood friends.. read it if you have time..Waiting for your review regarding this chapter.... Thank you for reading this story.. Love and Regards..Your story tellerMamree23.04.2020
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