𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐩𝐮𝐭𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐝
⚠️WARNING⚠️
MATURE SCENE AHEAD, READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION.
The ride to his apartment was silent but not as awkward as earlier, he would sneak glances my way thinking I wasn't looking and I would act like I didn't notice. This would go on for a while before one of us decides to speak. "What did Zach say to you earlier?" Four asks me after a while.
I turn my attention from the window and towards him. We were currently stopped at a red light so he could give me his full attention. "Nothing, he just wanted me to know that he could host my birthday—"
"Shit," Four mumbles under his breath making me furrow my eyebrows at him. "I've never even asked when your birthday is."
I give him a soft smile. "It doesn't matter, I don't celebrate it either way." I say and relief washes over him for a brief second. After three minutes, Four is pulling into his parking space and we are getting out. We pass some of Four's neighbors who are smoking outside before reaching his door.
"What were you doing at Zach's?" I ask him this time and watch as he places his keys on the table.
Four shrugs. "The usual, I'm only there to help him out. Bring people upstairs, get them hooked and then sell." He says, grabbing a water bottle from the fridge and offering it to me. "I don't know why I told you that." He chuckles, sitting down on the couch next to me.
"Who am I going to tell? My absent parents or my drug addicted brother?" I mock and drink from the cold water bottle.
"I'm sorry about leaving you waiting, I should've called." Four says, playing with the loose strings on my shorts, distracting himself from looking at me. I bite the inside of my cheek and I reach for his hair, almost gasping at how soft his curls were.
I compose myself. "It doesn't matter now," I say truthfully. I had my time to get over it. Four looks up to me, a small smile on his lips and I inwardly lean into him, wrapping my arms around his neck. His hand caressed my cheek as his other held me in place.
"I'm sorry in advance," he adds, his smile being replaced by a look of seriousness. "For any future hurt I—" He stops talking when I press my lips to his, catching him off guard though he reciprocates the kiss.
I deepen it by straddling his waist, my hands burrowing themselves in his soft curls and I felt his hands roam my waist up to my back making goosebumps rise on my skin.
His lips went down my jawline and towards my neck before he sucks on my skin making me shudder. I knew exactly where this was going and I'm sure Four did too, this time I didn't want to stop. I reach down to the hem of my shirt and pull it over me, leaving me in my baby blue bra.
As if my actions had caught him completely off guard, he leans back on the couch and looks at me in awe making my face feel hot. My hands reach my back and unclasp my bra, letting the straps fall down my arms slowly before removing it.
"Jo," Four breathes out. "I just want to make sure this is something you want. That you want it to be...me." Four says with hesitation in his words.
"I do," I say, my eyes locked with his. "If you want to be."
He responds by standing up with me, he keeps my legs in place as he leads us down a hallway and inside a room and I realize I've never really been inside his room. He slowly places me on the soft bed, removes my shoes and helps me out of my shorts before I watch him remove his shirt.
"If you want to stop, tell me." He says and I nod. I watch as he opens his drawer and takes out a foil packet, ripping it open and pulling his pants off before he slowly tugs down his boxers, my face growing hot as I see him exposed like that.
He's about to put the condom on before I stop him. "Let me." I say and he nods, handing me the wet rubber. He was hard as I unrolled the condom on his shaft, twitching as my hand touched him briefly.
I felt him grab something off the nightstand before he removes my panties and something wet and cold touches me unexpectedly making me jerk away and look up to see him show me a bottle of lube. "This will help." He soothes.
"Okay." I say and lay my head back down on the pillow. I hope it doesn't hurt as much, but my thoughts are answered when I feel him press himself against me, the tension making me grasp the blanket. When I inhaled sharply, Four stops and my eyes open. "Keep going, get it over with." I say and watch as he lets out a laugh.
"That puts me in the mood," he mocks and recollects himself. "Jo, if it hurts just tell me."
"Four," I lay my head back on the pillow. "It sucks." I breathe out and he pulls back in a laugh. "Really sucks." I know it was my first time, so that's why it wasn't feeling good to me.
When Four stops laughing, he sits me up. "Here, just get on top." He says beginning to lay down and I panic.
"What? No, I don't now if I can." I quickly say and he plants a soft kiss on my lips, preventing me from panicking.
"That way you can control the pace and the depth," he says. "You can do it, trust me." Hesitantly, I straddle him. My legs at either side of his waist once again before he guides me on his dick. I take a breath before lowering myself slowly, the girth of him stretching my muscles and I stop when the pain becomes too much for me to handle.
"I'm sorry, that's all I can go." I say and Four smiles.
"That's okay." It was true, in this position I felt more in control of it. I took my time, slowly going up and down, feeling myself dipping just a bit further as my body was getting used to his. I placed my hand flat on his chest for support and he had his hands on my waist, softly guiding my movements and tracing soft patterns on my bare skin, mumbling reassuring words.
Without realizing it, my body had completely gotten used to him where it no longer hurt as much, it just felt really wet and I prayed it wouldn't be because of the blood but part of me knew it was exactly why.
Four didn't seem to care and quite frankly, neither did I. I felt him slide in and out. It didn't necessarily feel good, the tension was still very much there but it wasn't painful. He bucks his hips inwardly in me making me wince but I try masking it by pressing my lips together.
"Sorry." He breathes, allowing me to continue my actions. When I felt like I had too much, I stop, relieving my legs and my core in the process.
"I think that's all I can do," I say, getting off of him. "I'm—"
"No, don't apologize." Four reassures, propping himself on his elbows. He kisses my lips and smiles softly at me. When I look down to him, there's patches of blood and when I look at my thighs there's was blood too. I quickly get off, realizing I had gotten it on his bed.
"Damn it, I'm sorry I'll wash it." I say and grab the blanket but Four stops me and I look at him.
"Jo, stop apologizing." he chuckles and tucks hair behind my ear. My messy bun was halfway out of the bun making me take it down. "I'll do it, why don't you wait for me in the bathroom and we can shower together?" He asks and I nod.
He had already pulled up his boxers and he smiles at me before taking the bloodied blanket out into the hallway where his laundry room was. I hear him twist the knobs on the washer and start it. I do as told and wait for him in the bathroom, watching my naked body in the mirror.
I had sex.
I didn't think I'd ever say those words, still being in high school but I did. I hear vibration in the drawer under the sink but I ignore it. I decide to start the shower and set it to lukewarm water before getting in, the water encasing me.
I wait for Four before I can do shampoo but the water soon goes from warm to cold and I was forced out. Maybe he's busy doing something he didn't come shower. Once I'm dressed, I leave my hair to air dry before coming out of the bathroom and leaving his room to hear voices in the living room.
"You've put this off way too many times," I hear Thomas speak. I was hiding in the hallway where I could only hear their voices and see their silhouettes.
"This wasn't my fault to begin with," Four says. "I'm tired of being a part of your mess."
"We're family, that should mean something to you."
"Not when it involves—"
"Oh? Don't tell me. Spare me the reasons why you keep putting this off, I would love it if Zach were here to know." Thomas mocks him. When nobody speaks, I slowly poke my head from behind the wall where Thomas sees me and smiles. "I didn't know you weren't alone." When he says this, Four turns around with a furrow in between his eyebrows.
"What's going on?" I ask, walking forward and stand beside Four. It seemed like they were having some sort of argument.
"Nothing, he was just leaving." Four grits and Thomas looks to him with a smirk. "I already told Zach I was out."
"Of course," Thomas nods and walks to the door. "I just don't think you'll be able to get out of this one." He says and with one last look, he leaves. Four's back is to me and I can sense him annoyed.
"Are you okay?" I finally speak, coming close to him wrapping my arms around his waist and pressing my face onto his back. His muscles seem to relax a tiny bit before he turns around to see me. "What was that all about?"
"Trust me, nothing fun," he says. "Let's just go to bed, okay? We can go for some coffee in the morning." At this, I nod and go in the room, Four follows soon after and then lays beside me. His arm goes under my head and he pulls me in with his other.
Silence fills the room as his hand softly goes through my hair, untangling it in the process with his fingers. I was beginning to feel drowsy and his warmth and the coolness of the room were enough to relax me.
"Jo?" I heard Four speak softly making my eyes open slightly, my mouth emitting a hum in response. Four seems to hesitate and go over what he wants to say. "You're making me fall in love with you."
At this, I was fully awake. I lift my head up to see his eyes already looking at me. "I am?" I question, unable to remember what I could've possibly done to make that happen.
Four nods, a intent look on his face that made it seem like he was studying every feature on my face. "Come back home with me." He says and I realize that maybe he's hallucinating or sleep talking.
"We are home." I softly say, a smile on my lips. "Your home." I elaborate and he shakes his head and now I know he's completely conscious.
"Home in London." He says and I sit up.
"You're out of your mind," I giggle and he sits up as well. "You're just tired."
"If you runaway with me, we can be together there." He pushes and I shake my head. "We can start over."
"I don't want to start over, I like my life here—"
"Being your brother's babysitter? Taking care of your parents new baby? " He cuts me off. "Jo, tell me this isn't how you want it to be the rest of your life." My smile fades and I'm just left looking at him.
He was being serious.
"Why are you pushing this?" I ask and Four looks away. "Is there something you're not telling me?"
"No, Jo. I just—I told you that after this school year I'm going back to London. I don't want to leave you behind." He says.
"I'll be fine here, besides we can have a long distance—"
"Fuck no," he says abruptly. "Long distance doesn't work for me."
"Okay, well there's not much else we can do." I say truthfully. "Why are you worrying about this now?" Four looks back to me and runs a hand through his curls.
"I just want to have a plan ready, and I would love it if you were in it." Four says and I rest my cheek on his shoulder. I don't know why he's worrying about this all of a sudden. Maybe it could be the fact that he said he's falling in love with me and he's just vulnerable right now.
I hadn't given this much thought, I guess I was just prepared for him to walk away or leave to London. I didn't think we'd actually get to this point in such a short amount of time. But hearing him say that he's falling for me was like some sort of validation of my feelings, and I loved the way it made me feel.
"I would love to be a part of your plan," I say. "Let's worry about this later. Okay?" At this, Four nods and lays back down with me. "You're making me fall in love with you too." I tell him.
Four simply hugs me tight and kisses my forehead before we both fall asleep in each other's arms.
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