Chapter Sixteen
Valerie's POV
"Morning, daddy." I said with a force smile. Humalik ako sa pisngi niya bago umupo sa tabi niya. I woke up feeling awful. My eyes were sore from crying myself to sleep last night. I finally let out all the emotions I was holding back after Axel left. I felt mad and angry because of what he did to me. He had used my body as he wanted. But most of all, I was scared... I was scared because I liked it. A part of me had enjoyed what he had done and on some level, I crave him. Even if I didn't want to admit, he made me feel delightfully owned.
"Good morning." Ngumiti si dad sa akin. "Sayang at hindi kayo nag-abot ni Axel. Kaaalis niya lang kani-kanina."
Kumunot ang noo ko. "Saan siya pumunta?"
"Bumalik na ng Maynila. Marami na daw siyang naiwang trabaho. Nagpasalamat siya sa akin at umalis na. Hindi ba siya nagpaalam sa'yo?"
I felt my heart drop to my stomach at what I just heard. Umalis na si Axel, bumalik na siya sa Manila. Dapat nga matuwa ako, hindi ba? Wala nang mangugulo sa akin at sa amin ni David?
"Good riddance." I said and swallowed the lump forming in my throat.
"Hanggang ngayon ba hindi pa rin kayo nagkakasundo?" Tanong ni daddy.
I just shrugged my shoulders.
"Kayo talagang mga bata kayo." Naiiling na sabi ni daddy.
I forced myself to eat even when I lost my appetite. I felt like there was a lump blocking my throat as I tried to keep the tears at bay. He didn't have any reason to stay here any longer. Nakuha na kasi niya ang gusto niya. To him this was all just a game. He'd throw girls like garbage after he was done with them and move on to the next one. It's really sick how he gets his thrills.
Dumating si David pagkatapos kong magbreakfast. We went out to see a movie together katulad ng napag-usapan naming kahapon. And suddenly he was holding my hand and putting his arm around me in the theater. David was really sweet to me pero hindi ko mapilit ang sarili ko na mag-enjoy. Something was bothering me and I couldn't figure it out. I was off. Ni hindi ako maka-focus sa pinanonood naming movie. Nag-aya na akong lumabas bago pa man matapos iyon.
"Hey, you alright?" Tanong sa akin ni David habang naglalakad kami.
I gave him a faint smile and nodded my head.
"No, you're not. Was it about what happened yesterday?" He asked.
"No, yes... I- I don't know..." I sighed.
"Angel," He gently touched my cheek. "What happened yesterday was amazing."
It wasn't, for me... Agad akong nagbaba ng tingin. I didn't want him to see it in my eyes. It made me even more confused than I ever was. What happened yesterday ignited nothing but discontent and frustration. I was supposed to feel something, a spark, anything but I didn't. All I could think of was Axel's lips while I was kissing him. I closed my eyes and imagined it was him as David's lips trailed down my neck but it didn't work. It just made me feel more guilty. Because I was thinking of Axel while I was kissing him. I let him kiss me for a few moment before I pushed him away. I didn't realize he left a mark there until Axel pointed it out last night.
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko because I thought by letting him kiss me I could erase Axel's kisses. Na mararamdaman ko din kay David ang nararamdaman ko sa tuwing hinahalikan niya ako. I wanted to prove to myself that my love for David would win over my lust for Axel. And I proved myself wrong. Hindi ko pa rin matanggap iyon. It was as if my body didn't belong even to me anymore, this body was Axel's. His to touch, his to kiss, his to hold, his to ravage, to fuck...
And I found myself beginning to accept it. I was so scared and confused. The man I hated was what my body wanted.
I forced out a smile. He kissed me on the forehead and wrapped his arm around my shoulder. David was the right man for me. He had to be. Hindi siya katulad ni Axel, hindi niya ako paglalaruan, hindi niya ako sasaktan...
Dinala niya ako sa bahay nila pagkatapos naming mamasyal. We had dinner with his parents and he took me home after that. Hininto niya ang kotse at napabuntong-hininga siya. He leaned over to me to give me a kiss pero mabilis kong iniwas ang mga labi ko. He looked at me a bit confused and shocked.
"I-I'm sorry..." Mahinang sabi ko.
He let out a long exhale as he leaned back down to his chair. "What exactly are we?"
"I just... I think we need to take things slowly." Sabi ko.
"Why are you suddenly cold to me when we just made out yesterday?" He frowned.
"Masyadong mabilis ang mga nangyayari. Ayoko lang magmadali." I said. "Sana maintindihan mo..."
He nodded his head. "Yeah, I completely understand." He let out another sigh. "Well, good night."
Nagpaalam na ako sa kanya bago bumaba sa kotse. I went straight to my room and took a bath. I sighed as the tub reminded me of him. I thought of the night when we sat there with me after he had, I swallowed the lump forming in my throat, fucked me. I quickly got out of the tub and dried myself. Lumabas ako ng banyo at nagbihis ng pantulog. I layed in bed and closed my eyes. But even the bed, I couldn't lie on it without thinking of him. He took a piece of me tha I would never get back. And it didn't mean anything to him at all.
Axel's POV
I hadn't seen her face in 11 days. Napabuntong-hininga akong sumandal sa upuan ko. Why was I counting the days and when would it stop? I tried to bury myself with work to stop myself from thinking about her but she kept popping in to my head. She's probably fucking David while I think of her right now. That thought made me feel stupid and vulnerable and I hated feeling this way. I wished I could just turn off my mind even just for one fucking minute. Sumasakit na ang ulo ko kaiisip. I downed another glass of brandy and looked around the club. Tonight, I am going to fuck the first girl I see.
"Hey, look who's back." Nakangiting lumapit sa akin si Wayne. "Kamusta ang bakasyon mo?"
"Good." Matipid at walang ngiting sabi ko.
"Kailan ka pa bumalik galing bakasyon?" Seth sat down beside me.
"Magdadalawang linggo na."
"Kagagaling mo lang ng bakasyon pero mukhang stress na stress ka." Wayne said.
"Naipon kasi ang mga trabahong naiwan ko." I answered.
"How's Val?" Wayne stared at me meaningfully.
"Still a fucking brat." I said, shrugging my shoulders.
I poured myself another drink and chugged it down. Sandali pa kaming nag-usap bago may isang babaeng lumapit sa akin.
"Axel!" She smiled and waved at me. She was pretty, tall and slender, with a tiny waist and a pair of pornstar tits. How fucking convenient was that? I swear, I had seen her before but I couldn't remember when 'and who she was.
"Hey, beautiful." I smiled back at her. I'm fucking you tonight, baby
."Do you still remember me? Chelsea!" She said excitedly as she put her hands on her chest. Nagbaba ang tingin ko sa dibdib niya. Damn! Her cleavage was all out.
"Of course, I remember you, Chelsea..." Even though I didn't. "Come here, baby. Why don't you take a seat next to meet."
She swayed her hips as she walked towards me and sat next to me.
"Ito nga pala ang mga kaibigan ko sina Wayne at Axel." Pakilala ko sa kanya. The two gave her a smile and a nod.
"So, dude, where did you two met?" Seth grinned. I threw him a subtle glare. He was teasing me. They knew me well. They knew I had no idea who this girl was and I was just faking it. Tinignan ako ni Chelsea na parang hinihintay ang sagot ko.
"We met at a... a..." I snapped my fingers, pretending to think.
"We met at Winona's beach party!" She said.
"Yeah, at Winona's beach party..." Sabi ko. The two assholes chuckled.
"I'm so glad na nagkita ulit tayo dito." She wrapped her arms around mine, my arm snuggling between her D cup bossom. I let her blabber for awhile, pretending to listen to her.
"Hey, want to continue our conversation at your place? Masyado ng maingay dito." Bulong ko sa kanya.
She smiled even wider and nodded her head. "Sure, let's get out of here. We have a lot to talk about, I'd probably keep you up all night."
"I wouldn't mind, baby." I winked at her.
Nagpaalam na ako sa dalawa na abala na rin sa kasama nila. We went out of the club and got in to my car. Itinuro niya ang direksyon sa bahay nila. I pulled over in front of her house. Pagkalabas pa lang naming ng kotse ipinupulot niya na ang mga braso niya sa leeg ko at hinalikan ako. Hell, I hadn't been with a woman since Valerie! Napamura ako sa isip ko. Why did I have to think about that brat again? She could go fuck David for all I care. I responded to her kiss with a hungry passion. Nabuntong ko ang lahat ng inis ko sa labi niya. And she seemed to like it. Nakarating kami sa pinto ng bahay niya ng hindi naghihiwalay ang mga labi namin. She pulled away from the kiss to get her keys from her bag and open the door. Pagkabukas pa lang nang pinto ay nagmamadali niyang tinanggal ang butones ng shirt ko at hinubad iyon. She kissed me on the neck, her hands roaming all over my chest and my stomach. It went down to the button of my jeans and she undid it. Bumaba ang halik niya sa dibdib ko, sa tiyan hanggang sa lumuhod na siya sa harap ko. She looked up at me with a seductive smile on her face before pulling down my jeans and my underwear.
I groaned when I felt her hands around my shaft before taking it in her mouth.
"Val..." I moaned mindlessly.
"Who the hell is Val?" She stopped and looked up at me with a frown.
"Fuck!" I pulled up my pants. Pagkatapos ay dinampot ko ang shirt ko na nasa lapag.
"Axel!" She whined while I was buttoning my shirt. "What are you doing?"
I didn't answer her.
"Axel, you can call me anything you want..." Sabi niya.
Tumalikod na ako at naglakad palabas.
"Hey, where are you going?" She asked, frustrated, as she followed me.
"I'm sorry, Cherry, I need to go." Sabi ko bago sumakay sa kotse ko.
"It's Chelsea! Damn you!" I heard her say before hitting my car.
I started my car and took off. Paulit-ulit akong napamura. What was happening to me? Why do I keep thinking about Valerie, imagining her doing things to me? Inis na inis ako sa sarili ko dahil hindi ko siya magawang tanggalin sa isip ko. I was so fucking tired of thinking of her. Bakit ba ayaw patahimikin ng babaeng iyon ang isip ko? Bakit ba siya ang iniisip ko sa lahat ng ginagawa ko? Women are suppose to make my dick hard, not my life!
I got inside my condo and went to my room. Ibinagsak ko ang katawan ko sa kama. My mind was just so fucking exhausted and I was in dire need of relief. I stared at the ceiling for a brief moment before I sat back up. I reached for my bedside drawer and took out a pink chemise. It was Valerie's...
I felt it, touched it, smelled it... I felt like a fuckin psycho for doing this but what the hell... This was the only thing that gets me off. I unbuttoned my pants and pulled out my erection. I stroked myself, imagining her wrapped around me. Her tight little ass squeezing the hell out of my dick.
"Val... Fuck, Valerie..." I groaned as I stroke myself faster. I was almost there. I could feel myself closer and closer to climax. My body went in to a violent shrudder as I came hard. I found myself staring at the ceiling again as my orgasm subsided. I wasn't ready for her yet. I wasn't ready to feel this way for anybody yet...
Valerie's POV
"Axel..." I opened my eyes and darkness greeted me. I sighed. It was just one of those dreams. Simula nang umalis si Axel hindi na siya mawala-wala sa isip ko. Everywhere I look reminded me of him. He wouldn't leave my mind even in my dreams. I dreamt of him touching me here and there and everywhere I shouldn't be touched. My body miss him. It was going through Axel withdrawals...
I sat up and hugged my legs against my chest. The dream felt so real and my body was aching and wanting. I felt like I would sponteniously combust if I didn't do anything about it. I squeezed my legs together trying to surpress the growing heat there but my hands had taken a life of their own and I began to caress my body. I closed my eyes and pretended it was Axel's hands. I moaned when a hand stopped on my breast. I cupped my breast and squeezed it just like what Axel had done before.
I found myself taking off my cotton night dress until I was only in my underwear. I went back to cupping my breasts, I touched my nipple and they were already hard. I said Axel's name as I played with it, imagining it was him. I had never done this before. My hand shook as it traveled from my breast down to my stomach. I let it touch the fabric of my underwear. I was exploring, sliding, making myself feel good rubbing my slit over my panties.
"Mmm... Axel..." I moaned. It wasn't enough... I wanted to feel more...
My hand slip inside my underwear and I touched myself there. It sent waves of pleasure all through my body. I rubbed my finger where it felt good. Where he had made me feel good. I could the heat spreading all over. I rubbed faster and faster as I neared my orgasm. I slipped a finger inside me, feeling my wetness... slowly in and out... katulad ng ginawa niya sa akin.
"Oh God, Axel!" I cried out. Almost... there... I began bucking my hips up and down as my hand moved. I was on the verge of bursting. I cried out his name over and over as I let myself go. My body went limped against my bed. I felt drained and tears began to spill from my eyes. I miss him. I really do. It wasn't enough. I could never measure to what he gave me...
I wished I didn't feel this empty without him.
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Author's Note
Salamat sa birthday wishes and birthday greetings. At salamat ulit sa mga bumuo at gumawa ng video. Alam ko paulit-ulit na ako sa pagpapasalamat sa inyo pero talagang na touch ako. Hindi ko ineexpect yun. Basta alam niyo kung sinu-sino kayo at maraming salamat talaga. Naiyak talaga ako. Sobrang nakakaoverwhelm! T__T
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